peaceandparty
08-14-07, 03:38 PM
yes
from roughly december 06 or january 07
i ,gavan coleman-peaceandparty,was banned permanently and without a court hearing from xxytalk.com.
no-one knew of my eviction....all 500+ members had no idea that this was being done
only moderators knew and maybe welcome team members
my name was changed from peaceandparty to just PP
also without an email saying that!
my IP address was banned
and i was told not to join again
my girlfriend joined though and obviously i wrote a few posts with her name!
i didnt join with anyother name ,i kept good but at the same time i was missing out on much needed support
the owner of the site-rpick had had a very good friendship with me
and had allowed me to be on his site even though my views differed greatly from his at times
we even tried to make an irish retreat dream come true
and he wanted to even share a room with me
so we actually had developed a pretty close friendship online
he is and was gay......and for me-i dont mind that all-
but i think his crush on me was a little too close for comfort
i will not say out loud what he said to me on insttant chat services about my girlfriend and about me in general but it was a little too much to be commenting with me on certain issues like that(seeing as we never met in real life)...and at the same time try and control how i write,what i write and how i say things!
no-one else apart from a person called jeff and occassionally matt(basically "angry" xxyers)had had their posts screened
and also taken off if moderators saw fit to regard them as offensive(i agree with taking away posts but i think we should send the posts back to the writer by email so that their thoughts are not lost in cyber space)
i would ask anyone to go to xxytalk
and find good reason why i am not on there
you can be guaranteed that if i hear of similar stories in the world from now on...that i will use my diplomatic skills and heart to "fight " for the persons in question
my xxy membership was in jeopardy when i explicitly said that i am not religious in the normal sense
-just met a hare krishna today who was equally convinced that her faith was the one that makes most sense for everyone........so it is many faiths that like to try and convince others of "the light"-
my xxy membership was also in jeopardy when i brought up the political and patriotic problems associated with the un-united states of america....but these topics were mostly brought up in the miscellaneous sections
though i distinctly remember orinoco flow wasting a good valuable thread space with his republican views on the world"germany has no internet in hotels"....and himself and bbrovers(who i very much like because of his politeness)used my thread entitled--
--"free health care do you care"
to let political and environmental heated debates take place there
and basically destroying any feeling of fluid flow through the thread
another thing that i remember from xxytalk is that after having severe issues with certain people there stemming from stereotypical judgements-such as"gavan is a hippy,anarchist"
that my posts were being ignored....and not only that but i was given private posts from many of the leading "nice guys"-that "its great to see you not posting so much"
and also things like"if you keep writing the way you do,you will obviously have your posts skipped"
my girlfriend and many friends who read the blogs with me,said"childsplay.....dont bother getting hung up on this BS"
but for me.......all my life i could have done with this "support"
and i found it....and then was told that i was rejected from my own kind...or was i?!?(maybe just rejected by the people in power)
once i sent 350 emails out to email addresses that i found on the net
to invite them to the "international support forums"
and many came!
i have spoken personally to at least 100 xxyers
4 in person
many on messenger and yahoo chat!
and i am fully on for "non conforming" to someone elses standards of treating people with fair play
i dont see fair play out there in xxy world
i dont see a referee
i do notice that certain xxys do follow me around
but they are like weasels or rats or foxes
they say little or nothing.........and lurk!
they love when i make mistakes
and are eager to make a holy show of me
and like to comment when i ask "how do you perceive me?"
and the comments dont come across very accepting or encouraging
i deal with a lot of judgements online
there is no tone of voice to listen to
no eyes to get a feeling from
and also as an xxy individual-i am a procrastinator
which is very lucky for many people who are absolutely guilty for bullying and throwing crap my way!
its like bono from u2 said
-if you are confident,people like to pull you down to their level-
it has taken years to make myself better
people are astonished with my true heart and my lifestyle
different but honest
outspoken and passionate
angry at times but responsible and not too proud to regret ,apologise and make better improvements in my behaviour
certain xxys that i know from xxytalk
have been most rude
and full of themselves to the point where i think"surely they dont really mean that"
but unfortunately there exists this hollywood style life
where we are all acting cool
and pretending to others that we can handle things
i personally think xxys are ina precarious situation
we generally look like normal guys
but we feel so different to both sexes(in my opinion)
and because of our un-extra-ordinary being
its probably felt amongst the anonymous xxyers that its better to stay low
under the radar and just enjoy life as best as we can
i couldnt disagree with that more!
people are suffering out there
they think they are alone
and its part of my mission to give my best to these people who need help
not being on xxytalk(the only site in the world that exists and is active regularly and actually does give support to many people)
is damaging not just for me,but also for the many members that liked me and it will bring distrust into a world where there isnt enough trust anyway
i would suggest have a poll......on xxytalk
and ask a simple question:
is there room for peaceandparty on the international xxy forums"?
a:yes....of course-he is xxy and automatically belongs there!
b:no.....he had his chance and has blown it!....he is not worth the effort
c:maybe if he shows himself to be better than he was before
d:absolutely not.......he gives a bad impression of xxys-no-one is like him-may he rot in hell!
so far i just get the feeling from most on there
but not all
that its b,c and d
well i am not dead yet"i plan on not living too long-maybe into my 40´s"-i said in my bio
and i plan to make a meteor impact on this world with a huge intersex footprint
"coward"...-the kind andre wrote to this!
which i find selfish-insensitive and bully -like
but you see intersex people(yes---all you xxys are intersex: xx=woman-xy=man.......xxy=none of the above)
i am a high speed train when it comes to these issues
if i get knocked off my rails......i will make such a crash landing that the whole world will hear of it!
if nobody tries to destroy me ...then we might just get somewhere-faster
i would love if the train was filled with like minded people
but so far.....its full of conservative minds who are squabbling over silly things
like"we are not intersex"
i must laugh now...because you are all off your rockers if you think that peaceandparty would do anything that mirrors your behaviours!(i am not rude and deceitful and i encourage all to be better )
thankfully i have met fellow xxyers who have heart and soul and totally reflect what i would have thought 15 years ago that all us xxys would be like
but i would conclude that i think many of those lovely xxys have been put off or who knows!?!-maybe banned also from the conservative red tape societies formed a long time ago by people somehow looking for a spot light
as a performer on stage for money
i am generally under spotlights....and i do shine there
i am also a leo
so pride is there but i can bite my tongue
and swallow my pride
and go red in the face in the process
but i cannot allow segregation in this globalising world to take place
and i ca nnot allow a minority of security heads to displace an individual from their chosen path
i must say...that i am severly disappointed in many xxys who heard of my case but were too scared of falling into the same destiny as me if they were to have spoken out
thats the whole terrorism issue
make them scared and you can do what you want
we are all going to die
but why not try and enjoy the sunshine with me
instead of thinjking that i could be the devil in disguise
my lifestyle is very different to the norm
but as a mother teresa type
and as a very spiritual person and believer in god but just not maybe your picture perfect god
i do believe sinning is a crime in the eyes of god...and also many of the 10 commandments like...forgive thy neighbour
are important morals to go by
you may see my youtube videos and think"holy crap"
but the thing is.......i mingle with all sorts of people
i have been in the personal dwelling spaces of friends of the king of morocco
my father and myself have played music for the wealthiest and most admired people in ireland
i have stayed in 5 star hotels most of my life-and mostly by invitation
i get money from the sky!dont ask how---i think its my philosophy of give without thinking!
and i struggle with intersexer unification for the last 2 years
and i am dedicating another 20 years until my death bed andre!lol
i am not out to sell t-shirts but i wouldnt mind a few interested parties in my cds for sale
i would also like more active involvement from xxys and intersexers in general
i realise that its very difficult for many hormone takers to get up and go
and that many of us havent the mental energy to read through posts like this
many of us simply couldnt be arsed doing things that we know others wont do for us
anyway...i hope my dedication and patience is seen over the years
and i also hope for second chances to be given and in some cases.....3rd and 4th chances to be given because the ones that cant conform are the ones mostly at risk at harming themselves or others
and we must end this constant continuance of lack of tolerance and acceptance among the differences of individuals in this world we call earth
"ground control to major tom"
-space oddity is one of my party pieces---maybe you can hear me one time in concert playing cover songs or indeeed my original pieces!
anyway to those of you who dont skip lines
you make wonderful actors
no-seriously.........its good to read other peoples thoughts i think!
peace be with you
from roughly december 06 or january 07
i ,gavan coleman-peaceandparty,was banned permanently and without a court hearing from xxytalk.com.
no-one knew of my eviction....all 500+ members had no idea that this was being done
only moderators knew and maybe welcome team members
my name was changed from peaceandparty to just PP
also without an email saying that!
my IP address was banned
and i was told not to join again
my girlfriend joined though and obviously i wrote a few posts with her name!
i didnt join with anyother name ,i kept good but at the same time i was missing out on much needed support
the owner of the site-rpick had had a very good friendship with me
and had allowed me to be on his site even though my views differed greatly from his at times
we even tried to make an irish retreat dream come true
and he wanted to even share a room with me
so we actually had developed a pretty close friendship online
he is and was gay......and for me-i dont mind that all-
but i think his crush on me was a little too close for comfort
i will not say out loud what he said to me on insttant chat services about my girlfriend and about me in general but it was a little too much to be commenting with me on certain issues like that(seeing as we never met in real life)...and at the same time try and control how i write,what i write and how i say things!
no-one else apart from a person called jeff and occassionally matt(basically "angry" xxyers)had had their posts screened
and also taken off if moderators saw fit to regard them as offensive(i agree with taking away posts but i think we should send the posts back to the writer by email so that their thoughts are not lost in cyber space)
i would ask anyone to go to xxytalk
and find good reason why i am not on there
you can be guaranteed that if i hear of similar stories in the world from now on...that i will use my diplomatic skills and heart to "fight " for the persons in question
my xxy membership was in jeopardy when i explicitly said that i am not religious in the normal sense
-just met a hare krishna today who was equally convinced that her faith was the one that makes most sense for everyone........so it is many faiths that like to try and convince others of "the light"-
my xxy membership was also in jeopardy when i brought up the political and patriotic problems associated with the un-united states of america....but these topics were mostly brought up in the miscellaneous sections
though i distinctly remember orinoco flow wasting a good valuable thread space with his republican views on the world"germany has no internet in hotels"....and himself and bbrovers(who i very much like because of his politeness)used my thread entitled--
--"free health care do you care"
to let political and environmental heated debates take place there
and basically destroying any feeling of fluid flow through the thread
another thing that i remember from xxytalk is that after having severe issues with certain people there stemming from stereotypical judgements-such as"gavan is a hippy,anarchist"
that my posts were being ignored....and not only that but i was given private posts from many of the leading "nice guys"-that "its great to see you not posting so much"
and also things like"if you keep writing the way you do,you will obviously have your posts skipped"
my girlfriend and many friends who read the blogs with me,said"childsplay.....dont bother getting hung up on this BS"
but for me.......all my life i could have done with this "support"
and i found it....and then was told that i was rejected from my own kind...or was i?!?(maybe just rejected by the people in power)
once i sent 350 emails out to email addresses that i found on the net
to invite them to the "international support forums"
and many came!
i have spoken personally to at least 100 xxyers
4 in person
many on messenger and yahoo chat!
and i am fully on for "non conforming" to someone elses standards of treating people with fair play
i dont see fair play out there in xxy world
i dont see a referee
i do notice that certain xxys do follow me around
but they are like weasels or rats or foxes
they say little or nothing.........and lurk!
they love when i make mistakes
and are eager to make a holy show of me
and like to comment when i ask "how do you perceive me?"
and the comments dont come across very accepting or encouraging
i deal with a lot of judgements online
there is no tone of voice to listen to
no eyes to get a feeling from
and also as an xxy individual-i am a procrastinator
which is very lucky for many people who are absolutely guilty for bullying and throwing crap my way!
its like bono from u2 said
-if you are confident,people like to pull you down to their level-
it has taken years to make myself better
people are astonished with my true heart and my lifestyle
different but honest
outspoken and passionate
angry at times but responsible and not too proud to regret ,apologise and make better improvements in my behaviour
certain xxys that i know from xxytalk
have been most rude
and full of themselves to the point where i think"surely they dont really mean that"
but unfortunately there exists this hollywood style life
where we are all acting cool
and pretending to others that we can handle things
i personally think xxys are ina precarious situation
we generally look like normal guys
but we feel so different to both sexes(in my opinion)
and because of our un-extra-ordinary being
its probably felt amongst the anonymous xxyers that its better to stay low
under the radar and just enjoy life as best as we can
i couldnt disagree with that more!
people are suffering out there
they think they are alone
and its part of my mission to give my best to these people who need help
not being on xxytalk(the only site in the world that exists and is active regularly and actually does give support to many people)
is damaging not just for me,but also for the many members that liked me and it will bring distrust into a world where there isnt enough trust anyway
i would suggest have a poll......on xxytalk
and ask a simple question:
is there room for peaceandparty on the international xxy forums"?
a:yes....of course-he is xxy and automatically belongs there!
b:no.....he had his chance and has blown it!....he is not worth the effort
c:maybe if he shows himself to be better than he was before
d:absolutely not.......he gives a bad impression of xxys-no-one is like him-may he rot in hell!
so far i just get the feeling from most on there
but not all
that its b,c and d
well i am not dead yet"i plan on not living too long-maybe into my 40´s"-i said in my bio
and i plan to make a meteor impact on this world with a huge intersex footprint
"coward"...-the kind andre wrote to this!
which i find selfish-insensitive and bully -like
but you see intersex people(yes---all you xxys are intersex: xx=woman-xy=man.......xxy=none of the above)
i am a high speed train when it comes to these issues
if i get knocked off my rails......i will make such a crash landing that the whole world will hear of it!
if nobody tries to destroy me ...then we might just get somewhere-faster
i would love if the train was filled with like minded people
but so far.....its full of conservative minds who are squabbling over silly things
like"we are not intersex"
i must laugh now...because you are all off your rockers if you think that peaceandparty would do anything that mirrors your behaviours!(i am not rude and deceitful and i encourage all to be better )
thankfully i have met fellow xxyers who have heart and soul and totally reflect what i would have thought 15 years ago that all us xxys would be like
but i would conclude that i think many of those lovely xxys have been put off or who knows!?!-maybe banned also from the conservative red tape societies formed a long time ago by people somehow looking for a spot light
as a performer on stage for money
i am generally under spotlights....and i do shine there
i am also a leo
so pride is there but i can bite my tongue
and swallow my pride
and go red in the face in the process
but i cannot allow segregation in this globalising world to take place
and i ca nnot allow a minority of security heads to displace an individual from their chosen path
i must say...that i am severly disappointed in many xxys who heard of my case but were too scared of falling into the same destiny as me if they were to have spoken out
thats the whole terrorism issue
make them scared and you can do what you want
we are all going to die
but why not try and enjoy the sunshine with me
instead of thinjking that i could be the devil in disguise
my lifestyle is very different to the norm
but as a mother teresa type
and as a very spiritual person and believer in god but just not maybe your picture perfect god
i do believe sinning is a crime in the eyes of god...and also many of the 10 commandments like...forgive thy neighbour
are important morals to go by
you may see my youtube videos and think"holy crap"
but the thing is.......i mingle with all sorts of people
i have been in the personal dwelling spaces of friends of the king of morocco
my father and myself have played music for the wealthiest and most admired people in ireland
i have stayed in 5 star hotels most of my life-and mostly by invitation
i get money from the sky!dont ask how---i think its my philosophy of give without thinking!
and i struggle with intersexer unification for the last 2 years
and i am dedicating another 20 years until my death bed andre!lol
i am not out to sell t-shirts but i wouldnt mind a few interested parties in my cds for sale
i would also like more active involvement from xxys and intersexers in general
i realise that its very difficult for many hormone takers to get up and go
and that many of us havent the mental energy to read through posts like this
many of us simply couldnt be arsed doing things that we know others wont do for us
anyway...i hope my dedication and patience is seen over the years
and i also hope for second chances to be given and in some cases.....3rd and 4th chances to be given because the ones that cant conform are the ones mostly at risk at harming themselves or others
and we must end this constant continuance of lack of tolerance and acceptance among the differences of individuals in this world we call earth
"ground control to major tom"
-space oddity is one of my party pieces---maybe you can hear me one time in concert playing cover songs or indeeed my original pieces!
anyway to those of you who dont skip lines
you make wonderful actors
no-seriously.........its good to read other peoples thoughts i think!
peace be with you