kristan
10-25-09, 11:59 AM
Hey Everyone,
I have not posted in a while. I have been doing a lot of research and working on my Mother to get more information. I have made a lot of headway but need your help with a few issues concerning deductive reasoning in determining a clearer possibility to which Intersex condition I have. I'll make it clear that I am NOT looking for a diagnosis, just simply using your experiences to help me get a clearer idea of what I am dealing with on a regular basis, and to assist me in understanding the variety of conditions that are possibilities for me.
I'll give a quick synopsis of my story for those that have not read any of my posts, give new information, and give my hypothesis' so far.
I am 38 and have had an Intersex (exact condition undisclosed) confirmation this past May from my Mother. I was raised male but Identified as Transsexual since I understood the terminology (14).
I have been on an HRT regimen for a month and a half that includes Oestradiol, progesterone, Spironolactone and Finasteride. Yes, I am self medicating and I understand the risks involved.
For an XY Transsexual there are specific outcomes from HRT that do not vary from individual to individual. These include a generalized (yet adhered to) time line for specific results to manifest. There are also some XY traits (I'll elaborate further in a bit about my research on XX and XY traits I possess) that never go away for a transsexual individual. I am speaking specifically about beard growth, facial feminization (bone structure), body frame and breast growth. I also did some research on hands. My index, 'pointy' fingers are longer than my ring fingers (apparently an indication of XX chromosomes).
I am going to use a comparison to a typical MTF Transsexual to demonstrate my visible transition from a somewhat feminized male appearance to a predominantly feminine appearance.
I have just over one month of HRT on a typical Transsexual regimen (I reduced my daily doses by half 4 days ago). I am experiencing results that a typical transsexual 'may' experience after 2 years on the highest and safest doses recommended. These results include breast growth, weight distribution, hip development, hand and feet size (2-3 ring sizes and 10-9/9 1/2 shoe size) and reduced upper body strength. The possibility of Adrenal issues for some of these changes has occurred to me.
There are some results never to be expected in a trans person that I am experiencing. These results are a complete stop of beard growth, smaller Adam's Apple, reduced height (roughly an inch), and non-surgical facial feminization (cheek bones, brow). I have experienced one menstrual cycle in which I experienced all symptoms, including cramps, bleeding and feminine odor. My suspected labial fold appears to slightly 'pool' with blood (reddish, contracted and the skin 'leaks' what appears to be vaginal secretions). I can only conjecture at this point on the extent of female internal genitalia.
I am also experiencing a reduction in size and skin texture of my clitoris, and the manner in which it 'rests' between the folds of my labia (I suspect labial fusion or surgical labial fusion to enclose my undescended testes, which have reduced by 3/4 size).
Sexual indications since HRT include a distinct 'G spot' (clear differentiation from Prostate), increased nerve sensation on the tip of my clitoris with distinct 'confused' nerve receptors indicating the possibility of reconstructive surgery for hypospadias and/or a phallic appearance.
The fertility issue according to my research may be an indication as to which Intersex condition I possess. I Fathered two children, and with the aforementioned menstrual symptoms I am curious as to my possibility of being a fertile female as well.
My frustration and confusion stems from my Mother not willing to offer more information. She may not know the specifics herself, but that may just be me giving her the benefit of a doubt. I'm trying to leave out the psychological ramifications I am experiencing.
I am aware that I need to see a Doctor ASAP! for specific Karyotype and MRI's for specific internal genitalia. I don't need to be reminded of that. I am not avoiding the importance of that. I am positive I will be able to start making appointments in July when my SSDI Insurance begins and I receive a C.O.L.A. Increase.
In summation, I have come up with a few possibilities, but not one that may specifically pinpoint my condition to one particular Intersex condition. These possibilities are XX CAH (does my male fertility rule this out?). Ovo-Testes or "True Hermaphroditism" is another possibility considering my male fertility and extreme, early response to HRT. True hermaphroditism is what makes me curious about female fertility. AIS (partial or complete) is a possibility with my menstrual cycle and male fertility possibilities in ruling this out. I do not know much about 46 XX Male (sex reversal syndrome) and PIV.
phew!!!
Smooches,
Kristan
I have not posted in a while. I have been doing a lot of research and working on my Mother to get more information. I have made a lot of headway but need your help with a few issues concerning deductive reasoning in determining a clearer possibility to which Intersex condition I have. I'll make it clear that I am NOT looking for a diagnosis, just simply using your experiences to help me get a clearer idea of what I am dealing with on a regular basis, and to assist me in understanding the variety of conditions that are possibilities for me.
I'll give a quick synopsis of my story for those that have not read any of my posts, give new information, and give my hypothesis' so far.
I am 38 and have had an Intersex (exact condition undisclosed) confirmation this past May from my Mother. I was raised male but Identified as Transsexual since I understood the terminology (14).
I have been on an HRT regimen for a month and a half that includes Oestradiol, progesterone, Spironolactone and Finasteride. Yes, I am self medicating and I understand the risks involved.
For an XY Transsexual there are specific outcomes from HRT that do not vary from individual to individual. These include a generalized (yet adhered to) time line for specific results to manifest. There are also some XY traits (I'll elaborate further in a bit about my research on XX and XY traits I possess) that never go away for a transsexual individual. I am speaking specifically about beard growth, facial feminization (bone structure), body frame and breast growth. I also did some research on hands. My index, 'pointy' fingers are longer than my ring fingers (apparently an indication of XX chromosomes).
I am going to use a comparison to a typical MTF Transsexual to demonstrate my visible transition from a somewhat feminized male appearance to a predominantly feminine appearance.
I have just over one month of HRT on a typical Transsexual regimen (I reduced my daily doses by half 4 days ago). I am experiencing results that a typical transsexual 'may' experience after 2 years on the highest and safest doses recommended. These results include breast growth, weight distribution, hip development, hand and feet size (2-3 ring sizes and 10-9/9 1/2 shoe size) and reduced upper body strength. The possibility of Adrenal issues for some of these changes has occurred to me.
There are some results never to be expected in a trans person that I am experiencing. These results are a complete stop of beard growth, smaller Adam's Apple, reduced height (roughly an inch), and non-surgical facial feminization (cheek bones, brow). I have experienced one menstrual cycle in which I experienced all symptoms, including cramps, bleeding and feminine odor. My suspected labial fold appears to slightly 'pool' with blood (reddish, contracted and the skin 'leaks' what appears to be vaginal secretions). I can only conjecture at this point on the extent of female internal genitalia.
I am also experiencing a reduction in size and skin texture of my clitoris, and the manner in which it 'rests' between the folds of my labia (I suspect labial fusion or surgical labial fusion to enclose my undescended testes, which have reduced by 3/4 size).
Sexual indications since HRT include a distinct 'G spot' (clear differentiation from Prostate), increased nerve sensation on the tip of my clitoris with distinct 'confused' nerve receptors indicating the possibility of reconstructive surgery for hypospadias and/or a phallic appearance.
The fertility issue according to my research may be an indication as to which Intersex condition I possess. I Fathered two children, and with the aforementioned menstrual symptoms I am curious as to my possibility of being a fertile female as well.
My frustration and confusion stems from my Mother not willing to offer more information. She may not know the specifics herself, but that may just be me giving her the benefit of a doubt. I'm trying to leave out the psychological ramifications I am experiencing.
I am aware that I need to see a Doctor ASAP! for specific Karyotype and MRI's for specific internal genitalia. I don't need to be reminded of that. I am not avoiding the importance of that. I am positive I will be able to start making appointments in July when my SSDI Insurance begins and I receive a C.O.L.A. Increase.
In summation, I have come up with a few possibilities, but not one that may specifically pinpoint my condition to one particular Intersex condition. These possibilities are XX CAH (does my male fertility rule this out?). Ovo-Testes or "True Hermaphroditism" is another possibility considering my male fertility and extreme, early response to HRT. True hermaphroditism is what makes me curious about female fertility. AIS (partial or complete) is a possibility with my menstrual cycle and male fertility possibilities in ruling this out. I do not know much about 46 XX Male (sex reversal syndrome) and PIV.
phew!!!
Smooches,
Kristan