Just a Quick Hello

[melissab]

Just wanted to pop in after joining and say hello to the folks on the forum . - Look forward to following the topics here!

Cosmetic Surgery Affiliates

[notodd]

Hello back, What would you like to talk about?

[steve/lisa]

Life for me as some here may know is rough and long,a few good times and well,some,bad to very bad times,I think the trophy hunters or just plain curois are trying for me at times,I think I know now as all doubt i think has been removed that I don't fit into this world very well,the demonds came again last night and as i layed in bed sceaming for them to go away i felt the wieght of my world crashing down on me.I have all my life tried to fit into a place for my life to function in,a safe place where i could possiable fit,but for the 2ed time in this life i realize I will never fit in either sex role,my decisions I made long ago i fear have sealed my future for me.
I relize that the way I am is going to be a lonely place and again i find my head swimming around with thoughts of future friends and or a lover but i have to come down to earth again and set my feet firm on the ground,but as I stand there i find it moving like quick sand around me,hope is a terriable thing to have.Years ago i shut the world off from my life i carved a small piece of ground for me to stand on and lost it all,to a ruthless cold hearted lady, [thats a polite word for her] She once called me the "spawn of satan" for being born into this world like I am,like i had a choice,and many times, to many to count,those words we all hate and these words cut me and you all to the bone,"FREAK" "IT"and many more to terriable to mention.

i had a 1/3 of my breast removed the top 1/3 way back then to fit into the world of males as i ran away from my female side,and other things done to seal my fate and she excepted me as she told me if they grow back then we will just bind them in public and at home it does'nt matter,I firmly beleaved her and thought i found someone that really did'nt care what i was,i could have never guessed what she really ment in those words,i have a tape of her in bed with one of her lovers as he was plotting againest me,in it,she says to leave me alone and out of there affairs,after hearing this i felt secure,little did i relize that was said just for me,and then years i lived in hell from her and others games they played on me after years of standing on the side line waiting and HOPING she would still love me i decided after she poisoned me and drugged me while her friends raped me and put the vidio's on sale of this horrable thing for any person to endure i left her and lost everything i was in and out of the hosp for liver failure from the digitalis and other drugs and poisons she and her friends gave me for 2 years,my DR's even went to the D.A. of the county to prosacute her but they refused to even with blood test and hair results they refused.

The sherriff of that county told me in person that I WAS A FREAK OF NATURE,and had no rights at all,fine thing for him to say to me,an out standing example for our children to learn from,anyway there's so much that was done to me i could'nt list it all here,not enough space,so in closing i guess,I'll be shutting down for some time now as i re-think my place in this world and be deleting sites and such off this puter,i have to do this in a couple of days befor your holiday of Xmas,so thank you all for being here over the years for me and to what friends i may have had and not knew it i thank you for your support,Lisamay...

[spacegirl]

Lisa,
that's very terrible and sad. But why do you have to delete all your contact info? At least print out your bookmarks and logins/passwords and keep the printout somewhere safe, so you can return again someday.

[Aseras]

That really is horrible Lisa.

Maybe you need a change of scenery? Get away from those people and start over. There's always a place and a way for you, it's just hard to have to find it.

You are special and your story has helped many others like you and us. Don't let a few bad people get you down. Come be around the people who love you, and who really understand.

[steve/lisa]

Hi friends as to you Aseras,I did move away from that monster of a lady 15 months ago,and they still bother me,I have my sailboat still on the west coast and I'm thinking of just going and sailing away,at least then I can maybe some where find peace,the only trouble is i need to refresh my sailing skills as it's been a long time since i have sailed,but,right now i don't care if it sank on me or not,I just give up and give in,I guess.the monsters and the demons are just to powerful.

and i can't seem to do anything right today cause i put this last post on someone elses space thinking i did it as a stand alone post,I just give up is all.......Lisamay...

[spacegirl]

Lisa,
america is quickly becoming a repressive state under the new people's democratic party. It's sad to say, I wasn't surprised by the way the local sheriff treated you, because it's happening all over. I'd sail away too, if I could. But is there such thing as satellite wi-fi? because we'd really like you to keep in touch while you're sailing away.

But maybe you just need a good seafaring song to keep your spirits up while you get you sailboat ready for open ocean. How about this one? :)
http://www.lyricsdomain.com/19/styx/come_sail_away.html