Good Bye All...

[steve/lisa]

As of thursday nite at 11:00 PM I will post my last post to all my friends here,Good Bye All....

[spacegirl]

As of thursday nite at 11:00 PM I will post my last post to all my friends here,Good Bye All....

Lisa, I'll hope and pray for you that this is really you crossing the pacific in your sailboat, and not something like suicide. Something in your tone makes me wonder about that.

And not you accidentally dying from making an ill-prepared ocean crossing either. Please be sure to bring enough tools and supplies (especially fresh water) for a much longer trip than you anticipate. You never know when you could be becalmed, and there's no promise you'd be able to catch enough fish to feed yourself, let alone cook them. And solar water stills usually barely make enough fresh water to keep anyone alive.

At the very least, watch lots of Les Stroud's "Survivorman" videos, and be prepared. He's a heck of a lot more realistic than Bear Grylls.

[steve/lisa]

Spacegirl,I really don't care what happens to me out there i have a 41 ft ketch sailboat steel hull and a volvo engine and new sails,i would like to take the time to learn to sail again as it has been many yrs for me,if that happens then so be it,anyway talk later...

[steve/lisa]

for the last 5 yrs now i have been alone,some times confussed,and with no companion or lover or friends,not one,till i cam here,i found a friend by mistake,and we hung out together and bonded well,now we are roommate's we rent a house together and save a great deal on rent each,but why is it when i meet a possiable companion or at least i was decieved to sorta beleave that, does that person get wierd and start to ask if me and my roommate have sex or not,is it so hard to beleave that friends can live in the same house and share the rent and not think there having sex,has humanity reached that low of a point,i have to ask myself what kind of a person would think that of another,and i think one with no heart,a hacker maybe a lower than life type.

Anyway the "CROW'S" seem to always be on my back,as long as i can remember,so instead of talking about other people i perfer to move on with some thing a goal,my boat and maybe i can find peace out there and if anyone wants to bother me then their going to have to learn to swim real fast to keep up.

Am just tired of being judged for how i was born is all,i said this in a former post,I hope that when these people die and see there creator that he judges them as they judged me,and i want to be there to see it happen,anyway am really tired today have had bad cramps for 3 days now first time since aug,and have not slept hardly at all so will talk later all...

[steve/lisa]

Some times life is good and some times it's not so good,I have always looked for the good in people and that some times gets me in trouble,cause i often look the other way about things or try to give them the benefit of the doubt,but growing up in my world was,well,at best a challage,as there were times i would'nt have given 2 cents to see daylight again,for me going threw the long tunnel of life and at different times hoping that the light at the end of it, was'nt just a frieght train comming for me,and mostly finding out it was just a reflection off my flash light and WAM,hitting it head on,and then the some times long recovery of hitting it took place,but i always seemed to recover well enough to carry on with some what of a life,my heart my dreams and passion always seemed to win out over my being,my soul,and life went on for me.

For the first time ever i think all i ever did was fool myself,for now my heart is broken and i know not how to fix it,i closed it off for so long now i don't think it works anymore,and my dreams have turned to nightmares and demons rule their now,and my passion has turned to fear,and i find myself running as fast as i can from all this,and i don't know what to do,so many bad things have happened to me in the last 10 yrs i would not even know where to begin anymore.

This is and always has been the tuff time of the yr for me,bad things always happen to me this time of the yr,i buried her [Karen]in the book her name was changed to mellissa,on Jan 2ed and to perserve my own sanity i have to bury her again as i always have since she left,but this time for good,i know i have to let go of that time in my life to save myself,but i don't know if i have the strength to anymore and to what end,to be alone forever,as it seems i must do anyway,got to go,i can't finnish this now,sorry...

[isma]

Hi Lisa....What you are talking and feeling i had the same feelings deep inside my heart as i also had the history of being in love with an angel-like female 9 years ago and for the unfortunate luck she had the same feelings for me but i was allways denying this love from my side because i knew i am not the one who will make her happy but she insisted on loving me till the degree she annouced it clearly to me ( pleas marry me) but i kept denying it. It was the hardest time of my life and still is when the only person(your soulmate) on the surface of this planet you are dying to spend your life with admit loving you and you refused her love. After losing the hope on me, she accepted another's man proposal and get married but she invited me to her wedding and once i went in and our eyes met she cried as if i had not already in so much pain so she completed it. Till this moment my eyes tear when i remember this moment.
Sorry for talking so much but our existance here in this life is not to enjoy ourselves only but the main reason of our existance is to do good manners for our freinds, our families and our community and in the same time have the patience of any bad manners we may get because we are beleiving that the creator of this universe will judge our deeds and will end our sufferings by entering us the heavens where ther in no more suffer at all.
So what i really want you to do now is to readjust your target to be i am doing this for myself not for others because i beleive in GOD and his mercy in the hereafter.

[spacegirl]

Lisa;
I thought you'd be ready to set sail by now. It's fine to talk, but it's better to be a doer than an empty talker. No time like the present.

Please don't cry too loudly because you've been lonely for 5 years. I've never been married, or been romanced, or been given the slightest illusion of love in my entire life.

For a while I thought I had a friend, who would have been my only friend ever, except that person was a fake friend. As it turned out, they'd never been genuine. I found out later I was being slandered and sabotaged behind my back from the very beginning. That not only had I never been their friend, but they'd never even respected me as a human being. That they were only pretending to be a friend in order to stay close enough to me to continue harming me and my family. Ruined my cousin's life. All for no reason at all, only pure malice. Though I think there were some hints that maybe there was some racism involved, because of me not being a full blooded blue-eyed caucasian like them.

But if you're lonely to tears, how's being alone on a boat going to make that any better? Will you take a soccar ball along and call it "Wilson"? Strand yourself on a desert island? If I could, I'd send a UFO to come pick you up out of the south pacific while no one is looking, take you away to some exotic place where the people are good. Heck, if I could do that I'd be arranging my own passage away from this phoney world.

Betrayal sucks.

If you're still intending on going, try aiming for New Zealand. They might let you stay, maybe. They even have a transsexual minister of parliment. The other nations in the south pacific might arrest and/or execute you just for passing through their territorial waters. Well Australia probably wouldn't kill you, they'd just call you "bloke" a lot and then send you home without your boat.

[The Female Eunuch]

Spacegirl wrote: If you're still intending on going, try aiming for New Zealand. They might let you stay, maybe. They even have a transsexual minister of parliment.

You'd have to be a very good sailor to get to New Zealand - it's a loooong way. People have sailed it solo as a challenge, but I think they tend to have some sort of back-up ship or plane arranged to rescue them because they can't be sure they'll make it. We don't have a transsexual member of parliament any more, but she could probably have got re-elected if she wanted to.


The other nations in the south pacific might arrest and/or execute you just for passing through their territorial waters.

That's completely wrong. Fiji won't even execute people for treason - the death penalty is on the statute books, but they can't bring themselves to execute the guy who led a fascist coup there, because of the whole 'thou shalt not kill' thing in the bible. Polynesian countries like Samoa and Niue are probably okay about intersex people because they have their own traditions of transsexuality. And I think a foreigner who unexpectedly sailed a boat into a bay in Samoa would be much more likely to be made welcome than a foreigner who sailed a boat into a bay in the US. Tahiti may be stricter because it's a French colony.

Well Australia probably wouldn't kill you, they'd just call you "bloke" a lot and then send you home without your boat.

They'd call you 'mate' - they call everyone 'mate'. Also, are you white? I think they're more accepting towards foreigners who are white.

And Lisamay, I'm sorry to hear about your sadness. I still have periods of sadness about my ex dumping me several years ago, particularly related to how my intersex condition and medical problems got in the way of our relationship, and the fact that I don't know if any future relationship can be any better, or even as good.

cheers,
Caroline

[M-A]

Tahiti may be stricter because it's a French colony.

Technically it's France, not a colony, but you're right the rules that apply there are quite different... I figure they'd toss a flower necklace over your shoulders, then ask to see your papers.


They'd call you 'mate' - they call everyone 'mate'. Also, are you white? I think they're more accepting towards foreigners who are white.
Or asian:lol: