Shodan
04-17-04, 09:57 PM
:roll:
So Hi, my name's Natalie
although, long story short its also Matthew, it was changed to Natalie a few days after I was born, sux huh?
Although maybe havin 2 names is a good thing, (Insert funny joke here, Lol)
Anyways,
I only found out I was intersex 3mths ago, I'm 18, finished High school, live in Australia (Haha we rock), so I guess no wonder my lifes so weird.
Um I like:
Videogames (My xbox is my baby, :wink: )
Japanese Anime (My fav is Cowboy Bebop, I also like weird ones like Boogiepop Phantom and Lain, Oh and my fav movie is an anime called Perfect Blue {its about an actress pretending to be something she doesn't wanna be [& I liked it BEFORE I found out about the stuff about me!]})
Music (fav band is Garbage) I like rock mostly, and alternative, and World music, really into japanese rock lately, Lol!
The nittygritty of it all is:
I was born XY, ambiguous nothingness down-under
Raised as girl (obviously, since everybody knows girls are weirder than boys, Ha I can say that!)
Mum has trouble dealing with me, actually she has problems dealing with the whole issue, she says she's supporting me, but really she's lost, she's not really able to help me at all, she tries though.
I've never gotten my dad's version of events cuz he died of cancer 3 yrs ago (This sections an F*ing downer isn't it?) He was a great dad, but I feel really lost without his opinion.
I want to know what other people think of me, but at the same time not, great thing about being intersex, I can be two things on a whim!
I was born with testes, removed by surgeons, supposedly for some important reason, I don't trust doctors anymore. I hated them for a long time and this just did it!
What pisses me off is that I was raised as a girl, because doctors INTENDED to do surgery on me when I turned 2, 2!!! What the F were they thinking??? Anyway that has never happened. But I feel terribly lied to all my life by all the people I was supposed to be able to trust! So I still have to make a choice about surgery, if I want a relationship anyway.
I've also been on female HRT since I was 12, or 11, I dunno, and they put me on them by just telling me I was born without ovaries, a bloody half-truth is still a lie in my books, and only adds to my sense of betrayal. I'm still using HRT though, I can't decide or even understand whats happening to me at this point.
And on top of everything:
I use a wheelchair (legs don't work, everything above the waist and below the neck is fine, Lol, and I also have several other mutilations from other surgeries which are sorta hard to get into.)
So yeah thats the bad side of my life in a nutshell.
Apart from all of that I'm happy to chat with anyone!
- Sho
- Nat,
I like Sho cuz, I chose it
So Hi, my name's Natalie
although, long story short its also Matthew, it was changed to Natalie a few days after I was born, sux huh?
Although maybe havin 2 names is a good thing, (Insert funny joke here, Lol)
Anyways,
I only found out I was intersex 3mths ago, I'm 18, finished High school, live in Australia (Haha we rock), so I guess no wonder my lifes so weird.
Um I like:
Videogames (My xbox is my baby, :wink: )
Japanese Anime (My fav is Cowboy Bebop, I also like weird ones like Boogiepop Phantom and Lain, Oh and my fav movie is an anime called Perfect Blue {its about an actress pretending to be something she doesn't wanna be [& I liked it BEFORE I found out about the stuff about me!]})
Music (fav band is Garbage) I like rock mostly, and alternative, and World music, really into japanese rock lately, Lol!
The nittygritty of it all is:
I was born XY, ambiguous nothingness down-under
Raised as girl (obviously, since everybody knows girls are weirder than boys, Ha I can say that!)
Mum has trouble dealing with me, actually she has problems dealing with the whole issue, she says she's supporting me, but really she's lost, she's not really able to help me at all, she tries though.
I've never gotten my dad's version of events cuz he died of cancer 3 yrs ago (This sections an F*ing downer isn't it?) He was a great dad, but I feel really lost without his opinion.
I want to know what other people think of me, but at the same time not, great thing about being intersex, I can be two things on a whim!
I was born with testes, removed by surgeons, supposedly for some important reason, I don't trust doctors anymore. I hated them for a long time and this just did it!
What pisses me off is that I was raised as a girl, because doctors INTENDED to do surgery on me when I turned 2, 2!!! What the F were they thinking??? Anyway that has never happened. But I feel terribly lied to all my life by all the people I was supposed to be able to trust! So I still have to make a choice about surgery, if I want a relationship anyway.
I've also been on female HRT since I was 12, or 11, I dunno, and they put me on them by just telling me I was born without ovaries, a bloody half-truth is still a lie in my books, and only adds to my sense of betrayal. I'm still using HRT though, I can't decide or even understand whats happening to me at this point.
And on top of everything:
I use a wheelchair (legs don't work, everything above the waist and below the neck is fine, Lol, and I also have several other mutilations from other surgeries which are sorta hard to get into.)
So yeah thats the bad side of my life in a nutshell.
Apart from all of that I'm happy to chat with anyone!
- Sho
- Nat,
I like Sho cuz, I chose it