Alternate reality

[MelissP]

Sometimes
I have flights of fancy in which I am here now a traveller from some alternate universe. Not grounded in much cause, except at times when my memories look real but disagree with what others have to say.

I thought I remembered an old song which was on the radio back in the early 90's. The dj's had always announced it as being by Devonsquare, and I thought it might have been called "7'th avenue" though I couldn't be sure. Except I tried to lookup info about and could find nothing at all. So today I contacted one of the members of the group, and gave a brief description, and he said there was no such song that they ever made.

It's as bad as records saying I spent the first grade or two in a special school, and then after thinking about it realizing that I have absolutely no memory of school experiences for those years, not even going to or coming from.

Just an observation, because Dana mentioned people feeling like they were in a twilight zone.

[Dana Gold]

Dear Melissa,

I feel a lot of the time that I have been and am still in the twilight zone, and various experiences have pressed me to the "outer limits" of my endurance and willingness to "put up with it all". Although, occasionally and more and more, I have stepped back into the "real world" with less apprehension.
I find myself being able to relate and empathize with sadness, misery, and abuse. I wish I could be able to say the same for happiness, comfort/security, and love.......sort of "looking from the outside in" kind of feeling at times.
I have to continually remind myself of some good aspects to my life; my work and relationships with co-workers here at the University, my relationship with my landlady.... and my very small group of acquaintences, who have become my friends, after a long period of dubious trust and distancing on my part.
Sometimes the twilight zone wasn't too bad, considering some of the ugly reality here on Earth....but then I am an incorrigible cynic and fear/distrust a lot of humankind, especially the ones I rant about in my posts.....the correct and control stuff. But I do know many good people....again remind yourself, Dana! :doh:

Take care.

:pizza: