Anybody have any answers?

[Marc]

I've posted here a few times about my condition, what ever that is, but I'm at a loss of what to do next. It started at puberty where my body started to develop female characteristics as well as male. The fat distribution, muscle development, skeletal development is female. My gait is female so when I walk people are confused to my gender as I walk like a female. I've been ridiculed my whole life as well as threats and assaults.
Doctors diagnosed me with idiopathic hypogonadotropic hypogonadism and
prescribed testosterone injections which I've been taken the last 2-3 years.
My point here is that I've tried to explain to them about the female characteristics and my walk but as far as their concerned it's all in my head.
The frustration of doctors not seeing the problem. I'm well aware they exist I've had to live with them my whole life along with the abuse that comes along with it. But forget the doctors for a second.
Does anyone know what condition I have? Is there a name for it?
Can anyone offer me any help or point me in the right direction?
Any place where I can get help/support?
Just someone to talk to, anyone with any similar problems?
It's like I've been left hanging, I've got to come up with the answers myself and find the help and support that I need.

[melonaide]

well, they diagnosed you and gave you medication so they are admitting that its not all in your head, but worrying is in your head...justified or not.
What do you think should be done about the way you walk?

as the the diagnosis I'd be the last one to help you there....I just saw this and no one had yet replied to it as they may not have seen it so I figured I'd put my two cents in.

[Marc]

I know realistically nothing can be done about my female characteristics and walk. Just keep on taking the injections and see where that leads. I just figured that maybe there was someone here with a similar condition who might be more informed than me. Someone I could relate to and share experiences. Possibly offer some more indepth details about my condition and where or how I can get further answers.

[melonaide]

oh sorry...that wouldn't be me.

Don't get me wrong...I'm not trying to be annoying...I don't like doctors either and they say and do alot of things that can make a person mad. They have a way of belittling because I guess they feel they know so much....maybe that's what ticked you off, but yeah...I agree that support from someone who can relate would be better than asking a doctor. Maybe they think the medicine is the best they can do and who knows? Or maybe they honestly don't think anything is wrong with these things that bother you so much. Maybe you get that alot and are tired of hearing it.

Well, I've never seen your walk so I'll leave you in peace on your quest for answers.

[Sofie]

*idiopathic* means, there's no known explanation for your condition, (or they can't find one).
In my late teens I looked quite different from the boys in my class but I didn't think of myself as looking female, it was rather like an oversized child.

[CC]

Before replying to this post,I set about reading over past replies you have recieved in relation to your quest for answers and found an earlier reply from Dana which IMO,has got to be worth a re-read on your part.

http://www.bodieslikeours.org/forums/showthread.php?p=7660#post7660

If I may highlight part of the said reply
Dana wrote
If you do not like your body, then "fix it" the way you wish (i.e. hormone therapy; "one-way or another").....if you choose to enhance your male features, I'm very sure the doctors would be delighted to help you (even with insurance coverage ).....if you decide to "stay the same" ....then accept yourself for what you are, move forward with living, and "to h*ll with the people who don't accept or ridicule you.

IMO,at the end of day Mark,this is a decision you are going to have to make,accept yourself for who you are,with or without the answers you desire,choose a path and then move forward,when you have done this,the past will seem unimportant.

Trust me when I say,I have been where you are now and I chose to move forward because the past was eating me up inside (so many unanswered questions) I learned with the aid of counselors and my family here on BLO,to "let go" and thus far I have not been dissapointed.

I wish you well on your journey and hope that one day,you too can "let go"

Peace and gentle breezes

Canice.