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zenditz
01-21-06, 06:21 PM
Hi,

My name is Katie, I'm very new to this forum, and would first off like to thank Betsy for her help getting my account working. I was born with CAH, or CvAH, but unlike most of the girls on this site, and others with CAH, I was not so lucky to have the 'correct' corrective surgeries done. Although I know that even the corrective surgeries to make girls with CAH's genitals appear more normal, are not always the best for the girl, especially when Doc's just go chopping away at her clit.

But I unfortunately was not even that lucky. The Doc's who pronounced my birth suggested these surgeries to my parents (a fact I only very recently found out, thanks to birth records I received. My farther refused them and told the Doc that, and I quote, "If he was going to raise that thing, it would be a boy". The Docs who pronounced my birth denied him those options, but he did eventually find Docs who would work with his twisted ideas of what I should be. Including Testosterone injections for as long as I can remember, well until I was 16 and finally escaped my parents house.

My farther was very abusive in many ways, and my mother did not help matters any. Until I was like 13, everyone in my family referred to me as 'it'... my mother said it was to make me feel more accepted for being different. I've been fighting these demons since I escaped my parents house (which is a whole other story), but I'm just wondering if there are any other girls here with CAH, who have similar experiences. Mainly being forced by their parents to fit into a male role, including the incorrect surgeries, or anything like that.

Take care,
Katie

TracyL1975
01-21-06, 06:37 PM
Please contact me..
yahoo messenger - tracyl1975
email: tracyl1975@<hidden>

Tracy

zenditz
01-21-06, 06:49 PM
I would love to talk more,

But I don't have internet at home, and am using a public computer, I can't log into Yahoo! Messenger. I would love to talk more though, if you would be so nice, just instant message me here, or in the thread. Any simular stories would be very comforting.

Take care,
Katie

zenditz
01-22-06, 02:53 PM
About me,

Well I come from a very abusive family. My father and brother both sexual and physically abused me until I finally got, ran, out of the house at 16.

Some Docs I guess would say abused but simple by following my father wishes, and not taking into account anything else... the evils of a small town. So now I'm left with just a mutilated vagina, which someday I'll get fixed as well as I can, but they didn't succeed in whatever they were trying to do.

As for the work stuff, right now I'm unemployed and homeless due to a disease called DYT1 Generalized Dystonia, another genetic cures thanks to my screwed up family... bad DNA and insane people.

I know the forums are public, but I'm working very hard on over coming serious shame issues and this forum is here for others with intersexed conditions, so I'm not ashamed to speak publicly about what has happened to me. It was nothing I had any control over.

TTFN,
Katie

Jolinn
01-23-06, 11:08 PM
Hi Katie,
Welcome to the forum...
I hope that things do improve for you as I know its not a position one cares to be in...

Jolinn.......

zenditz
01-24-06, 05:10 PM
Thanks for the words of confidence,

Things are getting better, slowwly but surely. And their way better than the hell I grew up in... so things are really good compared... tough, but not the hell I got away from. And things will keep getting better. I'm sure of it, because this girl ain't givin up for nothing.

TTFN,
Katie

pricklypear
02-26-06, 12:56 PM
Hi Zenditz

I just read your post and am really saddened to hear of your past experience with your family and your condition. However, I am not completely sad becuase you sound like the most amazing and postive person. I just wish u, and anybody else, never had to go thru that stuff. Sometimes the best people have to go thru a lot, and that sounds like the case with you.

I just cannot believe that people, like your father, can subject their own child to that kind of treatment, yet this is such a screwed up world. You deserve so much better, and you will come thru!

I just want to say, go girl!! I don't know u first-hand, but you are in my thoughts and prayers, and as you say- you aren't gonna give up for nothing. Excellent! :cfs_flowe :cfs_flowe :cfs_flowe

Lots and lots of love
T

zenditz
02-26-06, 06:31 PM
You sound like a sweet heart,

I know I've had it tough, and am still going through a ton, and thanks for mentioning it. But I've come hella long way from where I once was, and I'm pretty happy with myself, and my life. Although I'm always growing, I mean like I'll never stop growing, but thank you your very beautifully kind words.

*Hugs*,
Katie