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[Phishead4xx]

Hello everybody, my name is Jacob. I'm 18 years old and it seems that I am an XXY male. I can't afford to go to a doctor yet, but I plan to do so as soon as I can afford it. It has been a struggle for me the past few months, I'm out on my own and have finally found work that is bearable. Anyway, I have no idea about my medical history. I do know that I have never fit into either gender, and I really don't think I ever will. I tried to "come out" to my sister and she laughed at me... which I can understand. This website (along with many others, Ani Difranco albums, and meditations...) has helped me to accept both the masculine and feminine parts of myself, and I love them. This is only my second attempt to use the message board, but hopefully I will begin to use it more frequently. I'd love to talk to all of you. Feel free to IM or Email me. Namaste.

[CC]

Hello Jacob and welcome to BLO :wave1:
May I ask,why you suspect you may be xxy ?

C

Hello everybody, my name is Jacob. I'm 18 years old and it seems that I am an XXY male. I can't afford to go to a doctor yet, but I plan to do so as soon as I can afford it.

[Phishead4xx]

May I ask,why you suspect you may be xxy ?

I suspect I am XXY because I have a very small penis (unless erect), firm breasts like a woman's, and I don't fit in at all with other males. I know something is funky with my gender, XXY or not. But I am pretty sure I am XXY from what I've read. My figure is very female, and I feel very feminine, although I am a straight guy. High school was hell for me because I was into sports and everything, but I couldn't get naked in front of the guys without being mocked like crazy. I just know something is off-kilter. What do u think?

[Maura]

Jacob,
There is a polithera of potential deviations within the mosiac of chromasomes within the average human that may be responsible, this sounds like something a competent endocrinologist and/or geneticist might easily sort out for you. Good luck!

[Phishead4xx]

Thanks alot for your advice Maura. I will be getting health insurance from my job in 60 days, I'm going to start looking into seeing an endocrinologist then. I doubt it would be covered, but maybe. It never hurts to try. Anyway, I hope all you folks have an awesome weekend. Take care and blessed be.

Jacob

[Az1]

I visit from time to time to read all the posts and reply to the individuals who are here.
I am XXy and I have an understanding of XXy and have learned that individuals " want to know " about XXy and who we are. I had found I was XXy thru a series of bloodwork.
I have done my share of postings and have not found to many answers that I have seeked. I have found others who are XXy and share and seek the same experiences and sometimes experiences I have never had.
I am not one for long posts , I just wanted to Welcome You to this site.

Az1

[Nelu]

Jacob, I understand. I'm sure you have alot of feelings about this whole thing. I can't tell you, "It's OK."

I am instead going to say, It's not OK. I know, it's not OK for any of us. It feels horrible and shameful. But here, we don't have to feel ashamed, and we can find some level of connection.

[mohnblume]

Welcome Jacob. Your description reminds me so much on my own past. Almost congruent!

Follow your feelings - control with your head. It means: First look deeply inside yourself. You will find the answer. Just based on your feelings. It's the way to be prepared. Then go to the doctors, learn what the find out. That's the moment when you can start the discussion, and perhaps find a possible way to a solution. Good luck to you!

[NYCxxy]

I hope you are doing well. I had classic KS symptoms at puberty and was diagnosed at age 16. I'm now 44 years old and I must say I am really just coming to terms with it, believe it or not.

I received hormone therapy in the very beginning, without which my voice would never had changed to a male register, but right after leaving home I stopped the treatment and went through a long period (about ten years) of soul searching. I finally decided hormone therapy was the right thing for me, but I'll always be very much a mix of female and male. I'm only beginning to accept myself as I am.

Your posts are pleasantly surprising in that you sound much more centred and mature than I was at your age. Bravo! (Part of my KS manifestation included some a very protracted adolescence and lots of acting out. Not so much fun for the people around me.)

Your healthy attitude will get you through the difficult times. I believe one of the other people who replied to your original message, Maura, is quite correct in saying that the variations in XXY/KS and their manifestations can be hard to predict and that you really need to get a genetic test done, which will help your understanding of your own body.

I hope you'll be able to get the testing done as soon as possible if you haven't have the opportunity to do so already. Feel free to contact me via the site if you ever want to "talk" (or rather, write) about anything.

Best Regards,

Matt.

[CC]

Hello Matt and welcome :ARMS1: :wavey:

I'm now 44 years old and I must say I am really just coming to terms with it, believe it or not.

I'm 42 and doubt if I will ever come to terms with it:2in1:

I received hormone therapy in the very beginning, without which my voice would never had changed to a male register, but right after leaving home I stopped the treatment and went through a long period (about ten years) of soul searching. I finally decided hormone therapy was the right thing for me, but I'll always be very much a mix of female and male.

I've been there,indeed I am probably still................there!
Am I allowed to ask,what was your deciding factor in re-starting treatment ?

Best wishes
Canice.