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Atusa
03-21-06, 02:31 AM
Hello,

I am currently in a serious relationship with a man. This September will be 3 years we have known each other. We are highly compatible and love each other very much. We are seriously considering marriage. He had ambiguous sexual organs at birth and doctors recommended that he be raised as female. He lived as a female for the first twenty or so years of his life. He is now 38. He started receiving hormones at the time that he decided to transition. He has always had a difficult time talking about this subject with me. I imagine there is a lot of embarrassment and shame perhaps associated with it and he has also told me that he is angry with his Mother for not revealing this news to him earlier. Apparently, she revealed this to him when he was 12 after he had expressed to her that he was having conflicting feelings about his sexual orientation. He says that he was born with partial female parts...he has never explained exactly what he was born with. Last year, he underwent surgery and now he has a penis and testicles. He is too embarrassed to show me photos of himself as a child and youth. He is also too embarrassed to honestly talk to me about what his life was really like during that time of his life. Before his surgery, he never let me see him without his hands covering himself, so I don't what he looked like before the surgery. He apparently saw a therapist a few times before he transitioned to make sure he knew what he was doing and that he was of sound mind. He said that the psychiatrist told him that he was very well-adjusted and trusted that he knew this was the best decision. I feel like every time I approach the subject he cringes and wishes I would not bring it up. His hesitation to be totally honest with me is somewhat upsetting to me. I still have questions and have a need to know all about him since he is the one I'll be spending the rest of my life with. Not knowing exactly what he was born with leaves me wondering things like was he born with a vagina and if not, why would doctors feel that it was best that he be raised female? I also question my own sexual orientation wondering if I am bisexual. This is all so new and foreign to me and I don't know how to deal with it. I believe that someone's past greatly influences their future relationships and I'm left wondering whether I should be anticipating some pitfalls that come with the territory of living with someone with this kind of condition and history. What should I be aware of, should I be wary or concerned? Should we both seek therapy for this before entering marriage?

Atusa

prince....ss?
03-21-06, 11:07 AM
Hello,

I am currently in a serious relationship with a man. This September will be 3 years we have known each other. We are highly compatible and love each other very much.
Atusa
Good morning Atusa,

The part that I quoted should be enough to answer the question of marriage. Although your description of things can only allow me to speculate, so take what I say with a grain of salt…I am no expert but I have had similar experiences and questions in the past.

On the first note, I would say perhaps your boyfriend is reluctant to discuss things with you because he wants you to see the man that he is and not what his body and past life forced him into. Perhaps this has some merit because it sounds like you are having concerns. He may not realize that you need this information to give the subject a degree of closure. All I can suggest is in any relationship the more open the communication the better.

I see that you already have concerns about your own sexuality based upon your boyfriends’ condition. This could be another reason he is not forth coming with information with you. If he knows he is a man and you see him as a man than what’s the problem? Just because the body did not develop in a specific direction has little to do with a person’s true sex. So just because your boyfriend was born with parts of both, would not automatically make you bisexual, but I would say that it would make you a caring and loving person to accept him as he is.

If you intent to spend you life with this person and want to know about things to watch out for and pitfalls that you can get caught up in….well ….yes there are many. But the thing is you will have these issues with any person that you enter a relationship with. Love him for the person that he is, take the good with the bad, and deal with problems as they come along.

Therapy, some people claim to have gained help from therapy, I have never experienced the process, so that would be up to you and your boyfriend. I think you should start with good communication between the two of you.

Good luck to you both.
Prince….ss?

Atusa
03-22-06, 01:05 AM
I thank you for your insight and feedback. I'm a very conservative and cautious person. This will be my second marriage. My first ended after 18 years. I have three teenage children. I want to make sure I am making the right decision for myself and my children. I want to go into a relationship with eyes wide open and no rose-colored glasses. After being in a relationship for 18 years, I know the hard work and reality of being in a marriage. I really wish there was a support group that I can attend that I can bring this subject up with.

Atusa

Betsy
03-22-06, 01:44 AM
Do you love him? Do you love him despite his history? Is he good to your children? Is he good to you? Does he love you? Is the sex good?

If yes to the above, I think you are making more of a deal out of than is necessary. Perhaps in the future he'll share more his history with you but that history is not necessarily who is today which is the most important thing...not who he was as a child.