sparklingdreams
08-25-06, 11:14 PM
I got some really awesome news from my Doctor today,
She'd called on Tuesday and asked for the names of my old endracronologists' and gynocologists' to see if I'd had the test done before. I told her "I didn't think I had", but I had tons of tests when I first got out of my parents house.
She called today with the results, they were the last thing I emotionally expected but the most rational answer. And apparently I did have my chromosomes tested along with X-Rays, Ultrasounds, and C.A.H. type testing, cortisol & sodium tests, and tissue tests for HPV testing. I don't even rememberring taking or tslking about most of these except the Ultrasounds, X-Rays, and Coritsol tests. But a lot was going on back then. But the good news is that I'm done freaking out, my old results show I'm XX. I didn't ask for detailed counts, or if she even had them. I was just relieved, then I felt like a complete and total idiot for worring so much.
Then I've spent the rest of the day crying on the brink of going over the edge and just feeling so close to ending things. Relizing I'm still way more effected by the years of abuse than I though I was. I felt I'd healed a lot more than I have. I just haven't had to deal with anything directly like my abuse and Doctors when growing up for several years. So hopefully I won't have to again, but I'm going to try and face this more with my therapist so I hopefully someday I won't have to go through anything like this last week again.
She'd called on Tuesday and asked for the names of my old endracronologists' and gynocologists' to see if I'd had the test done before. I told her "I didn't think I had", but I had tons of tests when I first got out of my parents house.
She called today with the results, they were the last thing I emotionally expected but the most rational answer. And apparently I did have my chromosomes tested along with X-Rays, Ultrasounds, and C.A.H. type testing, cortisol & sodium tests, and tissue tests for HPV testing. I don't even rememberring taking or tslking about most of these except the Ultrasounds, X-Rays, and Coritsol tests. But a lot was going on back then. But the good news is that I'm done freaking out, my old results show I'm XX. I didn't ask for detailed counts, or if she even had them. I was just relieved, then I felt like a complete and total idiot for worring so much.
Then I've spent the rest of the day crying on the brink of going over the edge and just feeling so close to ending things. Relizing I'm still way more effected by the years of abuse than I though I was. I felt I'd healed a lot more than I have. I just haven't had to deal with anything directly like my abuse and Doctors when growing up for several years. So hopefully I won't have to again, but I'm going to try and face this more with my therapist so I hopefully someday I won't have to go through anything like this last week again.