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[marchthirteenth]

Hello.

I literally just STUMBLED on information concerning CAH and have been on a mission for the past 3 days. Maybe...just maybe...this is what is going on with me...I don't know...so this forum is somewhat of a grasp of straws for me.

Reading as much as I could about this enabled me to painfully identify with somethings that have happened up to the present. Reading the story section has given me the "courage" to participate in this forum...

I have grown up being called everything from a man to a dyke, thrown out of female dressing rooms, stared at while in public, asked if I was a man or WHAT, and during intimate moments...we are not even going to talk about what goes on after the lights... even with all of this, I have not been able to carry a child full term, and have at least one too many male characteristics too many...even so.... I must say that there are far many other persons who have gone thru much worse...my heart to you. and yes...I am also a GYN doctor's delight.....

Although I am not comfortable yet with talking about my physicalness...could someone suggest for me a good starting point for me to try to piece things together? :confused:

[Betsy]

Hi March,

What a troublesome spot to be in...not knowing your history.

You may want to start with trying to obtain your med records from your pediatric doctor to see if there was any type of diagnosis that was kept from you.

Hopefully others here will be able to offer other suggestions as well.

It's possible you may have some type of simple virilizing CAH. Do you have hair loss issues in a typical male pattern or facial hair that would seem to in excess? That may be a clue to act on.

Best,

Betsy

[Phillip]

Hi March,

Although theres miles between us in age, I think we may something in common. I went through the same thing in trying to find an identity, but what was worse,it was back 30 years ago, websites like this did not exist, and people certainly didn't discuss what was happening to them. Doctors didn't either.

My friend, although Betsy gave you a good start, you may want to try this also.

Put aside the talk, name calling, and all the things that hurt or confuse you for a minute. Then reach way deep down in your heart. Listen. You heart will tell you what direction to look to, and may help clear a path to what you believe you are.

Then take your first step. You'll be fine.

[Betsy]

Hi March,

I'm wondering how you've been doing and if you have gotten any closer to your quest?

Betsy