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dave6139
03-05-03, 10:05 AM
For 41 years I have struggled with my gender. I have always felt in my mind and soul that I should have been female. I continue to deal with anxiety problems. How does one come to terms with this? I have no explanations as to why I have felt this way since I was a small child. At this point my anxiety is having an effect on my physical health. As far as I know I have no physical reason or condition that may contribute to my gender confusion. Is it really possible to make a successful gender change and be accepted?This is a daily struggle for me. I find comfort when reading the concerns and issues of others on this site. Everyone is open here and understanding.
Girlyboy
03-06-03, 04:14 AM
Hello Dave. You're not the only one who struggles with gender. Quite obviously a lot of us do. I myself am XXY, and was raised as a girl, and then later as a boy and then a bit of both. Even though our life experiences are different, I don't think it is okay to trivialise what you feel. It is obviously a strong desire, an urge, whatever. Is it like you just don't belong as you are? I get that whenever people try to just throw me into the male mould. I don't fit that. I never will. I am a bit of both. It can be confusing and stressful at times. Plus there is the anxiety of wanting to release it all, and be yourself, but the fear of rejection and people's reactions.:(
I also know what it is like for anxiety to have an effect on your health. No fun.
I hope you are able to live in happier times, and enjoy a happier life.
Hi ,
Time for a change , Be yourself. No one can stop you for being who you are. Do not worry about gender ,
I just wish that Society did not judge individuals on gender.
I am IS and I rather have a soul rather deal with gender.Yes at times I do not want to be here living a lie ,
Being IS you have to fake yourself into thinking that you belong in this world. Think that your friends will someday understand.
I ask The holy one to forgive me everyday because I am not Az1. It scares me that the holy one will not accept me because of being IS.
So I hide my true inner self and please everyone around me , I have enough battles to fight within my own self.
I know what you mean about being in this enviroment and you are not walking alone. there are others who are stilll battling within their individualism but then there are others who have lost the battle.
I feel that with the help of this site and others who have the desire to win their battles will someday be az 1.
Az1
Muhoe
looking out side of the box
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