Andrea
05-21-03, 04:56 PM
My name is Andrea I am 29 years old. When I was born, my external genitals were; an enlarged clitoris, no vagina and my bladder was partially formed. I had surgery at birth to create a urinary tract and I believe to remove my gonads. I was assigned as a girl and that is how I have lived my life ever since. I was born and I grew up on an island in the Caribbean where conditions like mine were virtually unheard of so there was not much support from the medical field. Also the society of the country is very judgemental to anyone that is remotely different. so my mother guarded my condition fiercely even from me. Therefore allot of my medical history is unknown to me, when I became old enough to really understand the problem it was hard to start digging in the past.
All my life I have always known I was different from other girls but I never knew why even as a child I use to hide myself while changing just because I knew if I exposed myself I would be open to ridicule. How I was born is only part of my problem growing up I developed severe asthma and allopricia (hair loss) I am dyslexic and I have a condition known as Karateconus in both eyes where my cornea grows causing your vision to be blurred as light passes through the eye (ironically the odds of getting that is the same as being born with ambiguous genitals). If I had problems fitting in at school before there were loads of problems now. When I was 11 I had an operation to make my external genitals more feminine the operation was unsuccessful and I was left with quite allot of scarring after a year of being in and out of the hospital. Even when I was going through those hideously and painful operations, no one ever sat down and explained anything to me and I was too scared to ask.
Some how I survived high school went to college. At college life got a bit better I was able to hide my conditions much more easier. Another problem is my parents never really explained the rudiments of sex to me I learned a bit at school. I knew I was different but I did not knew how so I rented x-rated videos to figure out how normal people did it. It was only when I met a guy at 18 and attempted to have sex with him that I really understood the true extent of the problem. Thankfully, this guy understood and we learned to please each other in other ways.
I left home to go to University in the UK where I have been living for the last eight years (I really had to get away from that place). Up until the last three I use to just flirt and fool around with guys never letting them get too close until I met my last boyfriend who confronted me and did not let me run. Sadly our relationship broke up six months ago and I am absolutely devastated one of the main contributing factors was that he missed sex how he knew it and I was never comfortable with my body so he could never be comfortable with it either. Up until now I was certain that I would never have anymore surgery but now I am not so sure when I think of having it I think of the pain and the humiliation I had has a child but I would also love to have what other people have. Plus as always there is no guarantee I would work and the loss of sensitivity is worth considering (at least bow I can have an orgasm).
This marks a turning point for me openly talking about myself with complete strangers I would love to share my experiences and hear about yours.
All my life I have always known I was different from other girls but I never knew why even as a child I use to hide myself while changing just because I knew if I exposed myself I would be open to ridicule. How I was born is only part of my problem growing up I developed severe asthma and allopricia (hair loss) I am dyslexic and I have a condition known as Karateconus in both eyes where my cornea grows causing your vision to be blurred as light passes through the eye (ironically the odds of getting that is the same as being born with ambiguous genitals). If I had problems fitting in at school before there were loads of problems now. When I was 11 I had an operation to make my external genitals more feminine the operation was unsuccessful and I was left with quite allot of scarring after a year of being in and out of the hospital. Even when I was going through those hideously and painful operations, no one ever sat down and explained anything to me and I was too scared to ask.
Some how I survived high school went to college. At college life got a bit better I was able to hide my conditions much more easier. Another problem is my parents never really explained the rudiments of sex to me I learned a bit at school. I knew I was different but I did not knew how so I rented x-rated videos to figure out how normal people did it. It was only when I met a guy at 18 and attempted to have sex with him that I really understood the true extent of the problem. Thankfully, this guy understood and we learned to please each other in other ways.
I left home to go to University in the UK where I have been living for the last eight years (I really had to get away from that place). Up until the last three I use to just flirt and fool around with guys never letting them get too close until I met my last boyfriend who confronted me and did not let me run. Sadly our relationship broke up six months ago and I am absolutely devastated one of the main contributing factors was that he missed sex how he knew it and I was never comfortable with my body so he could never be comfortable with it either. Up until now I was certain that I would never have anymore surgery but now I am not so sure when I think of having it I think of the pain and the humiliation I had has a child but I would also love to have what other people have. Plus as always there is no guarantee I would work and the loss of sensitivity is worth considering (at least bow I can have an orgasm).
This marks a turning point for me openly talking about myself with complete strangers I would love to share my experiences and hear about yours.