Just saying hello

[MDR]

I'm Mark,

I'm not too bad now, but 11 years of marriage (now VERY rocky) have left me longing for people at least generally like me, who truly understand how I feel.

Long and short - born severely hypospadiased, so to speak 'repaired' to some extentand now scared of life after what seems to be an inevitable divorce - keep envisioning dying alone someday.

She accepted me back then, but the sheer weight of my mental state, an almost nonexistent sex life, my physical and mental infertility have been among the heftiest nails in the proverbial coffin. I really don't see myself ever going thru another 'reveal' - so if this is it - that's it.

I'm starting to get confused here - just hi, thanks for listening and if anybody needs me for anything I'm here.

[prince....ss?]

Hello and welcome Mark,

Trust me this is not the end of the world. After 11 years of marriage you will be feeling like it is. I have had similar experiences and after long and difficult recovery time things will get back to feeling normal again. Time heals all pain so I guarantee that one day your wishes will come to you as long as you pursue your dreams.

As far as dying alone, let’s hope we all do because I would not want to take someone with me. But I chose not to live alone and this is most important. You found someone to stay with you for 11 years …. Piece of cake it can happen for you again.

Perhaps your mental infertility can be worked on with new found friends here at BLO and that “inevitable” word can be removed from your marriage. All hope is never lost until you give up. ( I think I learned that here ;~) ….)

Take care, Prince….ss?

[Betsy]

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Hi Mark! Welcome to BLO.

Betsy

[MDR]

I was kind of wondering if maybe i did'nt belong here, but thanks for the welcome Betsy and thanks prince...ss? for the encouragement - i am most grateful.

[Jay]

Mark--

You're definately welcome here. People here with different backgrounds, histories, personal issues and societal issues all have one thing in common--community. So, know that you're now part of that community, no matter where it is you fit in particularly, because there are no cliques here, only various people with various problems, all out with the same goal in mind--understanding and truth. If you can shed light on someone else's problem, they can get closer to their own personal truth, and then be able to reciprocate and help you with your particularities that are unclear. That way we help each other, and help the community as a whole. Welcome. Jay.

[MDR]

Thanks Jay - having read of your situation I'm mpressed and inspired by your courage. Bless you and keep strong. :wavey:

[Glenn]

welcome!
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