Nightmares

[Priestess]

I've been having them again. Dark dreams where I can hardly see, and shadowy figures on the edge of my peripheral vision. And lately voices, mostly talking medical lingo, only some of the terms that I recognize. Last night's nightmare ended with them saying that there was too much blood loss, and ordering up more before the patient lost some kind of rhythm. It all faded to a haze, and I woke up a few minutes later with tears in my eyes. I find this somewhat disturbing. Why does my subconcious show me these things?

[fraulein_Maria]

Why does my subconcious show me these things?[/QUOTE]

>>>> because you finally feel safe enough to.......

remember.

[Priestess]

Why does my subconcious show me these things?

>>>> because you finally feel safe enough to.......

remember.

You may be right, but I wonder how this could be. I suppose it's possible, I've already broken the 3yo memory limit in a couple of brief flashes. On the other hand, from the few vague descriptions I've been given for what took place, I'm not sure how what they might have been doing could run me into a dangerous blood loss? On the other hand, maybe it doesn't take much to put a 3&1/2 year old at risk? My relatives said it was mostly just for appearances, which might just excuse being too foolish to check on what's inside before they closed it up. But if the medical procedure went deeper than that, then I don't understand what they were thinking. (sigh)

[fraulein_Maria]

On the other hand, maybe it doesn't take much to put a 3&1/2 year old at risk?

>>>> bingo <<<<

[Priestess]

Another nightmare last night, I which I was observing stereotypical lab-coated scientists working with genuine test tubes and apparently doing something like word-games using pen and paper. And then I left them and went outside the building, and the morning sun faded into blackness. As I looked up into the sky, I saw a giant circular florescent lightbulb, and realized it wasn't giant, but that the rest of the dream world was very small. And then it ended.

[Kailana]

Have you ever wondered if these small flashes of memory could be coming from sum of your more rescent tests.

You know? That the similarities between what your going threw now is mixing what your brain has stored away years ago. And now your getting flashes of those old memories, the ones you were too young too recall, but with added stimuli in a similar surrounding, and what da ya know, new memories, once lost, that are hard to explain because you cant exactly remember all the details. But they are still there, Locked away for years.

i havn't the slightest idea of what i am trying to say

im laughing at myself

take care all,

[Priestess]

Hi Kaila,
anything is possible, and I'm the first to say I don't know for sure the origins of the nightmares.

The pre-3yo memory flashes have nothing to do with new medical info, they had no content related to medical stuff or gender either. They were simply about a place I lived in until I was about 14 months old, and then never visited or saw again until this spring. And my mother looking much younger, and like a giant :) and some other woman who I didn't recognize but who seemed very familiar. She also looked like a giant. The memory flashes were slightly over two years ago, and I mentioned them to a counselor who I was forced to see back then, who said I should disregard it all, so I did. But then this last spring, I was taken for a visit of this first place I'd lived in, and apart from a few decades of progress, it was all pretty much exactly the same.

I can say for sure, that I've had nightmares about surgeons cutting me up, for a long long time, but by themselves, they are basically meaningless. Many people could have the same sorts of nightmares, of a giant 10ft tall masked surgeon in pea-green garb.

I do remember recovering from surgery, it is the beginning of my continuous stream of memories dating from when I was 3&1/2 to the present. But I'm not sure if I want to speculate about the origins of dreams.

[Priestess]

Hi again Kaila,
No ominous nightmares last night. Just a lightweight time-travel dream; of a stretch of woods along a nearby river, where it is simultaneously both "now" and 300-ish years ago, and a woman dressed like a dark-coloured version of red riding hood, as if in mourning. I've had this dream before, it's nothing too relevant to the present. :interesti

[fraulein_Maria]

[ Just a lightweight time-travel dream; of a stretch of woods along a nearby river, where it is simultaneously both "now" and 300-ish years ago, and a woman dressed like a dark-coloured version of red riding hood, as if in mourning. I've had this dream before, it's nothing too relevant to the present.

>>> Except that fairy tales (particularly Grimm's) are archtypal nightmares.

The wolf (archtypal male) in this fairy tale kills the grandmother, DRESSES IN HER CLOTHES, and lies in BED, waiting for little red (a child on the cusp of womanhood).

I would say the wolf in a gown represents the doctors to you. YOU are little red.

[Priestess]

Possible, I suppose, Maria. The hooded figure set of dreams seems to lack an obvious plotline or the cartoonish anthromorphic sort of wolf, so this leaves open a lot of possibilities. Archetypes can seem to mean many things, until an answer comes.

Previously, I'd been interpeting these as being about my unresolved thoughts concerning a long-ago ancestor from my mother's side, who'd been involved in the Newburyport witch accusations. I think the pilgrims must have been using some serious drugs, or else I wish I'd inherited the incredible magic powers that they imagined my ancestor having at her disposal :rolleye13