Turns out I'm not Trans, but Intersex

[Gentilly Girl]

:rolleye11 I'm new here because after 5+ years of Transitioning MTF, an aunt finally let me in on the mystery surrounding my birth.: I'm most probably a failed twin mosaic. My doc (who is a post op mtf) thinks that may be the case based upon the scar patterns. Genetic tests and MRIs to come when we get our V.A. hospital running again.

I live in New Orleans with my mtf partner Betty. We are repairing our home and property from the Deluge that the Corps gave us after Katrina. I am very active in the rebuilding of the city and am the most "out" TS/IS person here. Folks are being supportive and accepting of my "change" from being Trans to being IS. (The running quip about me is that I'll do anything to be odd. LOL)

Though I was told the truth right after Katrina, I really am now just starting to come to grips with the situation. I will continue my Transition, but now there are questions about my body and what exactly is in there. My therapist is helping me alot with the anger of being lied to and the worry about having health probs in the future.

Now I'm here to learn more about Intersex lives and how to deal with certain thought patterns that come up.

Blessings!

Morwen Madrigal :rose:

[Kailana]

Hiya Morwen,
And thanks for introducing yourself. I am also a Intersex Transexual, so your deffinately not alone. Mosaic, along with a screwy adrenal gland. Welcome, I think i like being first to say hello to new members. If, your ever in the mood to send me an email, feel free to do so, or even a pm, just click on my name at upper left.

Now as to whether or not im intersex vs being transgendered. I sort of think im both. But, that is only my perception of what i am. I actually tend to think they are just labels. I use both terms to identify me, as well i happen to have been born just a wee bit different, then what is the norm. So ok im intersexed. Along with that i am also transitioning from a male persona, assigned that way by surgeons, to a female one, my preference. Does that not make me transgendered in the minds of most people. Maybe it does, maybe it doesn't. I actually dont think it really matters all that much. I'm happy, I think thats what counts, and i'm me.

Searching for happiness, can be a far greater reward then dwelling on what one is. I still do that from time to time. I think its just mood swings. But what do i know, I'm wrong alot of the time. Anyways, if you have questions about anything, ask away. Theres tons of support available around here. I'd also advice to take my advice as just that, Advice= an opinion, doesn't meen im right, doesn't meen i'm wrong. Its just an opinion. if all you can be is happy, then be happy. ;-)

Best of luck to you, and thanks again for stopping by.

[Gentilly Girl]

Hi Kailana!

Thanks for the Welcome dawlin'. (I'm a Native New Orleanian, we talk like this.)

I agree with all that you wrote, especially the label stuffs. They have their uses. I use them as part of my personal crusade to teach folks who we are and what we are not. This has proven to be of so much value in getting people to understand our biological realities and the result upon our lives.

To me, by my keeping my mouth running and helping in all that folks need to do in getting this city rebuilt, much of the stigma of lying/secrecy that so many TS/IS folks go through has been shattered. We are seen as 'just folks". (Downside: I keep getting used as a babysitter :aargh: .)

As far as the emotional stuffs go, where once I was a very happy Transwoman, post-katrina so much is now in flux. The sadness, sense of loss, anger over the situation have exacerbated my personal feelings. So many of our bustling little Trans crowd is gone now. Only us crazy ones returned to fight the good fight.

I'll drop you a line soon. My free time is almost nil at this point in time: helped found the largest grassroots association here in order to create a voice that represents 26 smaller associations and 60K residents. Am also involved with ThinkNewOrleans and the Rising Tide. No one is going to screw the folks of the city all in the name of making money and in the process raping us.

Must run now... I'm a football widow and must now cook the sacred foods so that Betty's Pitt team will win today. :boohoo:

Namaste!

Morwen