newbie!

[sidneyblitz]

Hi all. My name is Sid, and I'm new here. I've been looking for a place like this for ages.

Here's my "story", if you'd call it that ;) I'm 18 years old, with atypical genitals. When my mother was pregnant with me, they told her she was going to have a boy. The ultrasound and other tests indicated a boy, and apparently I have a "male heartbeat," so that indicated I would be male, too. I was born, and all signs pointed to a healthy young boy when the doctors looked at me. My parents decided to name me Colin. Later, they figured out I was actually a girl, and quickly changed their choice of names.

I didn't know this all until a few months ago, when they told me. Until now I thought I was just...deformed, or something.

Anyway, glad to be here :D

[Betsy]

Hi Sid,

Welcome. Just out of curiousity, how long did it take to find out? you don't need to answer, it's just my curiousity.

Betsy

[Jules]

Wow! We could be scary close.:D

Welcome to Bodies! I hope you read through and relate to the

many storys here.

I hope that in time you get around to share your story.


You may find that it is healing to share.

Warm wishes!!

[sidneyblitz]

Originally posted by Betsy
Just out of curiousity, how long did it take to find out? you don't need to answer, it's just my curiousity.

Well, I had always suspected something was unusual abotu me, but I wasn't formally told until about 17 years after I was born.


thanks for all the welcomes!

Edit: Sorry, you mean how long did it take for the doctors and my parents to discover I was female? About a day of tests and examinations.

[aziatic]

Hey Sidney!
Glad to see that you found the board, and you found out about your IS at a youthful age. We got a whole lifetime ahead of us to change societies view on us.

Sincerely
Aziatic

[ptrinkl108]

Hi Sid,

I hope that you find this site valuable. I do have a question for you. How did you get the picture with the two different size pupils? I once had my eye pupils look like that for a few days, but it was the result of a pretty serious wack.

Peter

[sidneyblitz]

Originally posted by ptrinkl108
Hi Sid,

I hope that you find this site valuable. I do have a question for you. How did you get the picture with the two different size pupils? I once had my eye pupils look like that for a few days, but it was the result of a pretty serious wack.

Peter

Hi, thanks! So far it's been very helpful and interesting.

As for my signature banner, that's actually not a photo of my eyes, its David Bowie. As a lad he was hit very hard in the left eye and as a result the pupil is permenently dialated to this day. I find it quite dashing ^^ Here's the original pic:

http://5years.com/sukita3.jpg

[Rudy]

Hiya Sidney
Just wanted to say welcome, as i dont post very often. Also glad to read that your parents are talking to you. That doesnt always happen. And i Also wanted to know how you yourself feel about yourself as. Im trying tnot to pry, its just that well you mentioned that you felt different, i'd like to know howso? for myself im socially accepted as a man, but thats not what i think of myself as being, Too much surgery to make me look normal, and none of it fits me. So was curious how you feel about yourself, not what parents and doctors say you are. That to me doesnt say anything about you.Sorry if i offended, Just wanted to get a good or better sense of how you feel about yourself. and i was 22 when i truely found out how different i am, am 33 now, so far for me its my friends that truely understand me, Doctors, parents they just seem to hurt me more with there steriotypes. They all say im delusional. Gender identity diisorder. I'm Really not impressed with the Medical Community. oops sorry
Anyways welcome to the Community.
Rudy A. Alaniz

[sidneyblitz]

Thanks for the welcome!

That's a tough question. I'm technically female, but I'm really not comfortable with that term as the sole definition of what I am. I feel different because, in such a sex-soaked society, it seems to be pretty and feminine, one must have the perfect little discreet vagina, and nothing else. I'm far, far, from that--neither here nor there, understand? Until the whole situation was explained to me, I thought I was just screwed up--I didn't know there was a reason for it, or that there were other people like me.

So, as long as I keep my pants on and don't wear bathsuits or anything in public, people see me as a "woman". I don't feel I'm totally a woman, though--but neither do I feel I'm totally a man. I haven't totally figured it out yet, but I'm either a combination of both, or neither. It's hard to find people like that. I hope this answers your question!

(Slightly embaressed now...I've hardly ever discussed my genitalia before :o )

[Betsy]

(Slightly embaressed now...I've hardly ever discussed my genitalia before )

Hey Sid, Welcome to the club. It gets easier after awhile. If we talked more about them (meaning society in general, not just us) we'd probably have a healthier society. One of the things I always take note of is those with a penis talk all the time about them but talking about clits seems to be verboten. In fact, I'm waiting for an article to be published in a major newspaper and the reporter has said her eds. were a bit squeemish about all the clitorises in it. My reply was asking if they would be as uncomfortable doing a story about FGM or erectile dysfunction. It's just another form of secrecy and shame.

Betsy

[Kaniella]

Originally posted by sidneyblitz
Thanks for the welcome!

That's a tough question. I'm technically female, but I'm really not comfortable with that term as the sole definition of what I am. I feel different because, in such a sex-soaked society, it seems to be pretty and feminine, one must have the perfect little discreet vagina, and nothing else. I'm far, far, from that--neither here nor there, understand? Until the whole situation was explained to me, I thought I was just screwed up--I didn't know there was a reason for it, or that there were other people like me.

So, as long as I keep my pants on and don't wear bathsuits or anything in public, people see me as a "woman". I don't feel I'm totally a woman, though--but neither do I feel I'm totally a man. I haven't totally figured it out yet, but I'm either a combination of both, or neither. It's hard to find people like that. I hope this answers your question!

(Slightly embaressed now...I've hardly ever discussed my genitalia before :o )

Nah...Don't be embarassed try being in my shoes, I was 30 when I found out and it took a urologist to point it out. Imaging if you will being raised a male and all through my junior high school days to my high school days not looking like the other boys going through puberty and the such. To this day I still haven't grown any masculine hair on my chest & legs and I display alot of breast tissue than I care to have. I had a period of where I gave birth to 32 kidney stones in one year. (very painful) Only to find out that I was genetically xxx/xy and I had one teste and one ovary and that my body was producing testosterone in leathal amounts to over come the estrogen my body was producing thus causing the stone to form in my kidneys. Now I am confused and proud to be who and what I am IS.

[Jules]

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All of us at one point though that our conditions were one of a

kind. If you can imagine, when I saw my birth picture for the first

time, the thoughts that ran through my mind. What am I? Who

am I? What was done to me? Why do I look like a girl? Am I gay,

Half gay? Who saw me like this? Was it only my mother, father,

and grandparents? What did they think? Did they tell anybody? I

was totally freaked out! Then when my medical records looked

like the Old Testament of the Bible I knew I was in for a long hard

read. I could not even wait to get home to read them. I pulled

into a Walgreens parking lot just a mile from the doctor’s office

and started reading. Hot tears streaming down my face, hands

shaking, I read page after page. It felt like the world had come to

a screeching stop. TRUTH had fallen in my lap. My life could never

be the same again. A type of innocents had been snatched away

from me at that moment. This was the moment my mother had

hoped I would never have to face. Now not only did I have to

face it, but I faced it alone, in a parking lot, instead of being with

friends and family to help me through it. Bodies like ours has

helped me put my life back piece by piece. By sharing my story

with others that know what I’ve been through, healing finally

began. You don't ever have to be embarrassed! Your healing is

beginning sidneyblitz, and I am glad to be a part of it!

[aziatic]

Its amazing, it seems that the day you discover that secret that was hidden from you all your life, you see a totally new world. After the discovery, I saw everything and I mean everything in a new light, like my brain just opened up for the first time

Sincerely,
Aziatic

[RGMCjim]

Hi Sidney,
Welcome to BLO! Don't hesitate to talk about your genitals - this is a safe place for that. People and medical professionals have been arguing about mine for most of my 47 years. It's a big clit, no it's a tiny penis, no its...... I met another intersexed guy who had lived with the same thing and decided we needed our own word - he liked Phalloclit and I do too. Instead of having a not-quite-a-something I now have something to call it.
I was 44 before I found out I wasn't a partially formed male, but am a partially virilized female. It changed my sex life to find out I've got a vagina - I've had a lot of lost time/mileage to make up for!! Knowing what my body is has helped me continue to discover and reclaim my authentic self.
You've got a great adventure ahead.

Jim

[neko]

Originally posted by Kaniella
Nah...Don't be embarassed try being in my shoes, I was 30 when I found out and it took a urologist to point it out. Imaging if you will being raised a male and all through my junior high school days to my high school days not looking like the other boys going through puberty and the such. To this day I still haven't grown any masculine hair on my chest & legs and I display alot of breast tissue than I care to have. I had a period of where I gave birth to 32 kidney stones in one year. (very painful) Only to find out that I was genetically xxx/xy and I had one teste and one ovary and that my body was producing testosterone in leathal amounts to over come the estrogen my body was producing thus causing the stone to form in my kidneys. Now I am confused and proud to be who and what I am IS.

Does anyone know why people with intersex conditions seem to be predisposed to kidney stones?

I had the same thing happen. I didn't see any actual stones, just my kidneys hurt and there was a white precipitate in my urine. I mentioned it to several doctors but they just blew me off. The kidney problems went away after I started HRT. But I've never gotten a good explanation as to why I had this problem. There is no history of kidney stones in my family that I know of.

[RGMCjim]

I've had a lot of problems with kidney stones, but it would be impossible to determine if it has anything to do with being intersexed or hrt. Both my parents have had serious kidney stone problems and I'm on a lot of pain management medications that stress the kidneys and liver.

Jim

[Glenn]

Belated welcome to BLO. I'm Glenn. I've been around the community for a couple years now (!), though I just fell off the face of the earth for the last month or so... family vacation, too much work, etc.

Congrats for discovering you aren't alone! It can be cathartic to find out you're not as odd as you may have thought.
Welcome!

Glenn