Hello From Maryland

[kimflow]

I'm new to the forum, but I've been to the site many times. I'm 30 years old and Intersex (I guess). I was born was an enlarged clitoris and only recently had it shortened at age 23. A decision which I now regret. My family didn't talk to me about my 'special' condition, so I felt ashamed of my body and decided 'off with the clitoris.' The doctors were all too happy to do it, with no explaination of what caused it or anything. They just said that since everything else seemed normal, it must be one of those things that just happened. Well, 7 years later I am depressed and regretting having the surgery. I feel I should have attempted to understand more about myself and my condition before taking such drastic measures. Now, I'm just trying to get to know myself better and to just be happy.

[Rudy]

"Just trying to be happy"

That is probably the best thing i have heard anyone say in a while. Especially from myself. I might have to give that a try "hehe". Anyways glad to see you post and welcome. I'd advise however that you be carefull, when trying to find out what the cause was/is? So far all the doctors and psychiatrists i have talked to so far have been very stubborn about admitting that theres anything different about me. Fact is I had to to take in a photo quality MRI Scan in and show it to my psychologist along with a photo copy of a anatomical penis (that is a actual sketch of what a penis should look like from a anatomy book) just to get him to understand and accept that i definately had surgery at some point in my life to make things look normal. He however just kept relying on what the radiologist said "normal male anatomy" I had to get him to look at it again and tell me what he see's on the scan. Had to get him to see the differences between what is normal and what has been created. So finally he says "he understands now how im feeling". Knowing that all the Doctors im seeing wont admit anything even though i've shown them the same things.
I'd advise talking with friends and family. My friends accept me for me. Were as my family doesn't. you may have better luck. Not everyone here has all of the same experiences, but many have similar life experiences.
So there is a lot of understanding here that you may not get elsewhere. And post again soon. I really dont post that often. Thats one of may main faults. But then im not online anymore like i used to be. Stay in touch though.
Just trying to be happy- best of luck
Rudy A. Alaniz

[Kaniella]

Welcome to the forum. :sign16:

[Glenn]

:ARMS1:
Sorry to hear about your regrets, but at least you seem to be on a good track to make the best of it.

Glenn