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Fine Peter, two or three posts ago you were saying I had a normal male anatomy. Now you say you think I had an vaginaplasty with the additional surgery of removing my prostate and spermatic chords, those being extras because they aren't included in the standard vaginaplasty. And then you apparently think I had some other doctor close it all up and reconstruct a micro-penis from whatever bits and pieces remained- just so I could try to have an intersexed identity? The mindset and motivations that would go into doing all that would confuse even me.
Is an intersexed identity such a good thing to have that I would die for it? Probably not. There are good people here who I am friends with, and though I'd hope they'd like me for myself instead of my just being a symptom list, that is something I may never know.
In terms of adult vaginaplasties, for about 3 months this last summer I had enough money to afford one, and had exceeded all of the stated SOC rules. And in that brief time period, I was told that there was one requirement I hadn't fulfilled, the mental illness requirement of needing to be "gender dysphoric" while I fulfilled all the other rules. My obedience was not enough. They believed I had physical intersexed symptoms after seeing most of the medical reports, and apparently you are not allowed to be a transsexual if you have a physical reason. And it was then that they dropped me as a client.
Afterwards, I've since had to spend almost $6000 to date in out-of-pocket medical expenses to try for simple relief of my suffering, and some living expenses. And my life's savings will run out soon. It's all over.
I've been asked to either end this conversation or make it private, so I will. This thread was supposed to be about dreaming and memory anyways, not about arguing over personal validity. I should be ashamed of myself.
So unless we can take the subject to a more productive and supportive level, we should stop talking about it.
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