Trauma
Well I have more Trauma I'm trying to recover from,
I had an Intrathecal(spinal) Baclofen test injection. It involved all the standard spinal stuff. The X-Ray machine, two Doctors, tons of nurses, & tons of others. My therapist did come with us, which did save my life... but I still nearly had a complete break down. But now my T understands that Doctors have cause me just as much, if not more, pain than the father & brother did in their abusing me.
I have started to just let go of any expectation of actually getting anything to help my Generalized Dystonia, and I've accepted that I'll prolly never be able to correct the mutilations that were done to my body. So instead we're just moving on & finding someone special to share my life with. Though I have no doubt that I still have tons of work & growth to do before I'm as healed as I can be. That is of course still hoping that I can heal more than I have. Which may turn out not to be possible. I'm just ready to let go of the past & move on. The past just like won't let go of me. I'm so glad that the holiday triggers are almost gone. *Hugs* to everyone & best wishes on everyones journey of healing.
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