[RSR23]

In early winter, I posted an introductory story about myself. All of the pieces seemed to fit, that I had been born intersexed, and that I had been subjected to surgery as an infant. Raised as a female, I even gave birth to a son (I awoke the morning after childbirth to find a group of interns staring at my crotch and writing in their notebooks, while their instructor said "A most unusual case..."

I could not find any actual confirmation about my condition from my mother (all I got from her were vague statements about a problem "down below" when I was a baby). I was afraid to approach my doctor, even though other doctors in the past had asked me "When did you have reconstructive surgery?"

You, the members of this group, have been very kind to me, and gave me much encouragement via posts and emails after my post in November.

The reason for this current posting, is that I wanted to relate the amazing information that I received this past week from my family doctor. I was talking to him about my 86 year old mother, who has been in and out of hospitals and a rest home this winter, after falling at home. She was diagnosed with paranoia while in the hospital...

I was a compliant child, who grew up to be a compliant adult, who constantly (at least once an hour each day) checked in with my mother. When my mother could not get in touch with me one day last month, while she was at the rest home, she went into a tirade, and, in front of my doctor, told him and all of the staff about my intersexed birth. She said that I was born as a punishment from God, and that she needed to keep me by her side, lest I be killed or injured in a hate crime!

The doctor says that she tranferred her feelings of paranoia (which apparently she has had since birth) to me.

This episode enabled me to have an honest talk with my doctor about my intersexed state. He says that I definitely had genital surgery in my childhood. I intend to make another appointment soon, to discuss health ramifications about my condition, and to finally find out for certain if, indeed, I have CAH.

I feel like my life has been turned completely upside down, yet, I am frankly relieved that all of my suspicions are in truth, based on fact.
I am also relieved that I can tell this news to people who understand my situation. Thanks for reading this very long post!