[shelly]

I do identify with not wanting to be an "it". I am really struggling with that concept myself right now. In fact I am really depressed today. Maybe you will know that what I write truly comes from the heart at this moment. And that is not to discount anything anyone else said.

How can you be the most productive in society? If you have the option to be what you are truly comfortable with, then what is the big crime.

I don't identify much with transsexuals, but I do remember something one once told me; "life is something to be lived, not coped with.

As to your wife, do you think the problem is that she's just plain mean, or she is feeling a sense of loss? That is to say that if you go all male, would she simmer down? I can't advise you on that. I am staying as male as I can be to retain my loving wife. I don't want to make her a lesbian by default. I live as 50/50 and it really drives me crazy because I prefer being Michelle.

Anyway, as to my monthly periods, I don't have a drain either and it makes it hard on the body because I get all kinds of colds and phlem and breathing difficulties. I would love to have the plumming hooked up the right way, but then I think for me menopause should start soon and maybe I can keep the penis for my wife's sake. I love her so much.

You have to be able to live with yourself, and you can write me if you need to just cry it out. God bless and do something nice for yourself today

Mike/Michelle