[Kailana]

There are many transsexual who are in fact intersexed, and didnt find out untill they started transitioning. Sometimes family finally opens up and finally tells there kids why they dont fit there bodies. Sometimes its labs work that gives a clue. But if you are going to a clinic specifically for a Gender Identity Dismorphia i would be very carefull, hesitant to mention it.

As i have also spent many years talking with other transexuals, many of them are unaware of just how poorly an intersexual can get treated. Most have mentioned time and again how lucky i am to be IS. And I can asure you that being IS only made getting any refferals for an endocrinologist ridiculously difficult. I spent 6 years falling further and further into depression with a crappy psichiatrists who didnt get what i was saying. While i do identify as a transsexual, and i understand what and how many other TS feel like being trapped in the wrong body. From a medical standpoint getting treatment for GID can be extremely hard to do if you are Intersexed. Also there are still many Surgeons who perform SRS who will not perform surgery on an intersexed person do to the amount of previous damage, scarring, lack of available tissue done to our bodies, and the poor outcome. Now i know that not all surgeons think this way, but several of them do. It is one more thing to think about.

If you are truely curious then request to review your medical records. One of the first things your gonna notice if you are infact intersexed is that everything tends to be edited. Or they will tell you that they no longer have any records as too much time typically 7 years has elapsed. If you are fortunate to still live in the same city as you were born in and have had the same doctors most of your life they should have a whole lot of information on you. Also if you have had fairly regular visits then your records should all be together and nothing should be misssing. Another thing you can do is talk to relatives. Often there are things your parents wont want to talk about. That a aunt/uncle will be more open to discuss. And before you go and think that your grandparents are too old and wont understand. My experience has shown that my grandparents are alot more understanding and open then my parents. At least my grandparents acknowledge me as being both male and female. While they dont understand any of the medical terminology they are at least kind enough to accept that i am both. And as for my grandmother, she has always been one of my only relatives to openly state i should of been a girl as i grew up. She was the only one to tell me this nearly each time i saw her. And as I expected when I told her she just hugged me and said she knows, shes always known.

Now then back to the question as to whether you are or aren't. Your gonna have to wait for an answer either way. So I would advise that when you do go to that clinic and talk to the psychiatrists, or doctors/endo that you might want to mention if being intersexed is a posibility. But i wouldn't dwell on it in there presence. I know quite well what it is like to not feel like the sex that your body says you are. I would concentrate on what you feel is best for you, what you think will make you happiest. After all the words we all say on here, gender/sex its all pretty much what you think of yourself anyways, it doesnt matter if your body says female and your brain says male, your male, its your thoughts that make you so, and vice versa. your body, our bodies are just meat and bones what makes us who we are is our minds, and the ability to understand and care for one another.

Best of luck, and your always welcome to stop by and say hello and post updates, and ask lots and lots of questions. Cause we are if nothing else very accepting people and love to chat about the things that make us who we are.