Hello.!

[coldsaint]

Hi

I'm Thomas, named for St Thomas the doubting saint (had to stick his fingers in the wound before he'd believe). Proud of my name and who I am. Also a part of who I am is the androgynous nature of my personality and the intersexed nature of my biology. Hence being here .

Now talking comes somewhat easily to me. Talking about my being intersexed doesn't. This was actually the first forum I had found on it (I've been lurking but my verification got spam filtered). I've been chatting since then on an Klinefelters support site, which has been a good experience. Problem is I won't know until my karyotype results come in wether I actually have that or not. (Looks probable, I'll point out but I'll wait for the results)

I am however intersexed, although this is only a term I've recently begun applying. The crux of it is this: I was not born with either male or female gonads. At one point as a baby they had a look inside but I'm told they found nothing. I'm in the process of tracking down my medical records as I have some reason to doubt. ( for example there would have had to be something producing for my bits to be as far along the masculization process as they were.). I'll point out that while my genitalia was less than perfect at birth no operations were done until I was in my teenage years. I was given testostorone shots as an infant, on someone's ill advice. I think I lucked out comparitivley but my life has hardly been a bed of roses either.

I identify as androgynous. I'm not sure if there's a reason why this term has fallen into disuse, but it is what I like for myself. It ties into the androgynous ideal in Art which I find beautiful. There's times when I look at my own ambiguous figure in the mirror and think ' I'd hit that' even. Rare moments but it happens .

Anywho, it's very comforting to find people who have gone through similiar stuff that I've been dealing with on my own all these years. I hope I can contribute !

[peaceandparty]

that was truky a great talk on messenger

we will do it soon again

really really great

[Dianne]

Welcome CS!

[Kailana]

I am happy as well that you found your way onto the forum.

There are so many different variations out there that i really wouldnt be reallying on any one specific condition to really fit in. Sort of like while you might think the xxy might be a possibilty there are many others, so dont be discouraged should any tests come back ruling that out. I also would say to hang in there. Waiting on tests sucks, there results can also be quite devastating. Or hearing your doctor say "there is nothing wrong your perfectly normal", only later to request and get copies of your lab work, only to find out that it isn't true. Or, to get a diagnosis finally after wondering for years and the Doctors are telling you, you have this, and you have that. So even knowing can be hurtfull. I would advise you have someone you trust with you when go for answers, or to talk with after. i have found that having a friend who accepts you to be critically important to my well being. I tend to really on friends as my family isnt understanding at all, well most of my family isnt understanding, I do have a younger sister who is there and accepts me.
A friend, a family member, a favorite aunt or uncle, anyone at all that you trust can be beneficial to have at hand.

Anyhow, welcome to BLo I look forward to reading how your doing, what interests you. And answering any questions you may have. Best wishes

[Glenn]

Welcome, Thomas! And thanks for already contributing by sharing your story.