a little recognition please.

[Kailana]

Ok, this is getting to me.

with my rescent SSI hearing and findings, and talking with my current GP about the results, favorable decision. She basically said or at least acknowledged that i do have many turner traits, pinkys outturned/stunted, webbed neck, shield chest. But she cant or wont actually change my current medical diagnosis as Delusional Gender Identity Disorder, that they the hospital staff has used for the 7 years on me. What i am wondering, is if they have known i(my body) exhibits all of those things, and they have continued to ignore them for years, why did it take the SSI hearing results/facts of law/findings of law, for anyone to within the VA medical system to even acknowledge what i am. Why have i had such a hard time getting any acknowledgement for years, Its not as if my military medical records dont exhist, as they do, and why have i had such a hard time getting replacement copies of everything that i allready know. Fact is that my military medical records are owned by the federal government, and as a veteran i have complete access to them. The HIPA laws be damned, yet i still cant seem to get those records from may-june 93, or even a copy of my ETS health review from Ft. Dix new jersey, that states everything as well about what i am.

Basically, my gp, said that without a accurate karyotype of xy/xo turner mosaic, she cant correct my medical records. I do have a bone biopsy scheduled for Dec 4th, that i am trying to get rescheduled sooner. That however is for my benefit. Id still need another bucceal smear karyotype i believe, as the bone biopsy should say the same thing as my blood does, and my blood says im 46xy. Its the cheek swab, that says im XY/XO, so i really dont know if thats gonna actually help me or not. Im gettting the bone biopsy paying for it, because i am curious as to what it will say. They are taking a sample from my pelvic bone, high on the right backside, and that is what i am interested in, while i am predominately male phenotype, my pelvic bone structure looks female, pelvic floor is female in structure. I still have the heavy bone structure of a male, but the shape how it all developed is female in shape. That is why i am getting the bone biopsy, i have been curious for years about the shape of me, haha. Meaning i have the wide triangular shape you would expect in a woman, yet my phenotype is male, or at least predominately male.

thanks for reading, i would appreciate comments