Hi,

I am very recently out as an FTM and would really like to find some other guys to talk to about transitioning and starting hormone treatment. I've told a few close friends, but really feel the need to connect with someone who does understand. Hope to hear from you.

Neil
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I would like to be a first person to WELCOME you to Bodies Like Us.

I'm still fairly new to all of this and still learning but there's definitely intelligent people here who can and will help you.

Good Luck!

-Cherilyn

Hi Cherilyn,

I just wanted to say thank you for your warm welcome. So far this does seem to be a good place to be.

Neil

Welcome!

Glad you are here.

Natasha

Hi Neil!

I'm MTF even though I prefer to think of myself as FTF ( ;) ) and Bodies seems like an odd choice to start. I have been in transition for a while and my first attempts at contact were with crossdressers and then with TSs (harder to find and actually chat! with). The first barrier is in us, so congratulations! Are you just beginning to realize who/what you are? Consider me a tease if you don't want to answer!

I came here because I always thought I was intersex growing up, and I am still convinced is "sort of" am. So, is that the only reason you came to Bodies? To find some other guys to talk to who who have "been there"? I could give you some clues where to look, to get started, but because of what I am, I don't want to "put you out". Of course the contacts are more of the "woman" kind.

You are not the first FTM I have met and Whoa! that is a bit different to me. Not that the ones I am thinking of now weren't really nice guys.

Welcome to Bodies from one of the Wallflowers



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Learn from the mistakes of others. You can't live long enough to make them all yourself.

Hi Neil,

Welcome to Bodies Like Ours. I hope that you'll find a supportive community here. We have several members who are IS and FTM.

I lived in Albany for a short time in a previous life (Colonia actually) when I worked at WXXA. It was when they first started up doing local news.

Betsy Driver

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Until you've lost your reputation, you never realize what a burden it was or what freedom really is. --Margaret Mitchell

Gee, surprised this mornin'

Thanks for the responses!

I guess I could say a little about where I am right now. The lightbulb went on..just like that...Aug 14th 2003 to be exact. Just back from my therapy appt., having discussed that I would not be in another lesbian relationship..because lesbians want to be with women(which dawned on me recently)...I realized I never identified as a female at all. I dont feel female, I dont think female, and the thought of trying to live female has brought me to the point of wanting to put the gun to my head. I am male, and I need to physically express this in order to be free and whole. I've always felt trapped and invisible in the world..causing anger and anxiety...and always saw social gatherings as hard work...I can't do this anymore...So, here I am..and my journey's begun, and I'm glad to be here!

Neil

Hey Neil!

You'll never watch the sex scenes in movies the same again! In fact the last time I had sex just about settled it for me when I settled into multiple orgasms and my partner was scurrying from the room yelling "I'm not a lesbian!"

You are in for one adventure, Honey! I am so glad for you! Things will finally start to make sense.

Hope your therapist is at least open to this sort of thing, because the first ones I saw didn't have a clue. "Normal" people just cannot grasp what it's like, unless they are able to make the shift in perspective. Even if there are only a few TSs here, you WILL find a lot of people who are much more capable of relating, by their own experiences.

In addition, you might want to check out the forums on Lesbianation. I'm almost off all T lists now, but you could check out PFLAG, especially T-Net (I'm not sure of the home page--maybe there is still a link from "Youth-guard").

Hormones: Do a search for the old stand-by: Hormone.faq. Hormone info for all in transition. A bit dated, but still very useful. I think it's at Jenny O's site.

If you like reading, the book by Harry Benjamin, "The Transsexual Phenomenon", is still available for down load at The International Journal of Transgenderism. Forget the pictures.

Best of luck! The cable people are here!

Tata!

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Keep in mind always the present you are
constructing. It should be the future you
want. ~ Ola
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Congratulations on your realization!

Regardless of the cause, having a gender identity in conflict with one's body, is extremely hard to live with. It is so confusing! And many just have to project their own personal issues, sometimes to your hurt.

Regardless of others pet theories and assumed expertise on this issue. You have not chosen to be in the predicament you find yourself in. Funny how so many people will just assume that you did too. Considering the source of such attitudes, often even gay lesbian and intersex people, such is very hard to understand.

I wish you well on your journey sir, and I offer my friendship. Please try to look at it this way Alex. You have been resilient enough to survive this garbage so far. So now armed with your realization, you 'can' certainly do this. The confusion is resolved, and I believe that is the most difficult aspect of this.

Good luck, and stick around guy.

Natasha