[short311fan]

that's the main reason i'm trying to get those answers, is to help prevent any possible health problems that might arise. as far as being angry, and answers causing more emotional pain, ya know, when i first started looking into "what's wrong with me" over two and a half hears ago, yeah, i was hurt that potentially my parents may have hid all this from me for my entire life and that this all may have been somewhat avoidable. but at the same time, i'm over it, not ecause they did what's best for me or whatever, because they didn't, but because it's in the past and those are things i can't change, those events can't be altered, and the scars left from all those emotional wounds will fade someday. as far as that idiotic dr. money, i gotta agree, someone should have.... nah, i won't say it! lol!

are a lot of the weird things from my own childhood beginning to make sense? sure. is it re-opening old wounds? absolutely. but at the same time, a lot of those old wounds were never closed, because they were never really resolved, because i never really had the "why" or the "because" that hopefully some of what i'm learning now can fulfill.

don't get me wrong, i agree completely that sometimes answers can cause more pain than good, but at the same time, i gotta know who, or what, i am.....

i'm here for you's guys too, ya got that? huh? huh? do ya? lol! rock on.....