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For the record, if it stands anyway, and is not later sanitized. It is a new world order after all, and a not so really brave one after all it seems.

I have been silently reading here for a long time without posting, and I finally spoke out of concern, because this place seemed to have really changed. Over several months, I saw new people posting, and I saw them being ignored. I also thought I saw, an increasing new shift of focus toward gender identity issues as the predominant topic.

It also really looked to me, like all the old timers had just abandoned the place, and certainly, not in every case, some of the new posters looked to be really "creative" to me. It honestly appeared to me, that some of the status seeking, maladjusted, gender obsessed "forum warriors" crowd, who have for over a decade been having a gender fantasy tea party all over the internet, being apparently unable to settle their gender issues, had begun arriving here and trying to slowly but surely set up shop. I wasn't sure of this, but to me it looked like they were "testing the waters" and slowly becoming ever less subtle about it, because they were talking among themselves as no one here except Dana, who is an old timer, had said anything to them. If anyone else had done so I missed it, and I apologize for not noticing.

It was never about the whole silly "tans v intersex" issue for me. I have long believed that real gender dysphoria is probably rooted in biology, and I don't as "a matter of principle", or some such rubbish, presume all those who play with gender are sick or something, though many are.

It was for me just as I said earlier, ever so stupidly now as I look back, simply this. "1. It is not about gender identity. 2. It is not about gender roles within the binary. 3. It is not about unconscious presumptions of "validity" within some sort of hierarchy of status. I take issue with anybody, intersex or not, who insists upon making this place about such things, because it poisons the well, and it obscures issues of true relevance."

I wish I had not posted here at all now. I have not helped one tiny little bit, and in fact far from it. I don't need anything from anybody here. My issues of body and soul, both alike are settled, and I have a profound lack of talent for helping others, along with an amazing natural ability for messing things up, big time, in such a venue as this. I meant well. I am neither "anti-transsexual or "anti-transgender". Yes I know they are not the same. I feel the entire area, lacking a better word, of intersex and trans politics and support etc., is an immensely complicated and touchy beast of a thing, and I really should remember to stay away.


Dana I don't understand why you feel you must leave. I am really and truly sorry. In no way did I ever wish to hurt you or make you feel you should leave.


Once again I am sorry to have caused trouble. I wish all of you well.


One last thing.

Stop the horrific ethnic cleansing of Iraq and Palestine before it becomes world wide genocide. You are, far more likely than not, also on their list.