[Rycharde]

I have heard many people who have some forms of CAH are able to still live as men and take testosterone.
I know it sounds really stupid at this point, but I'd rather chance the comas then to live without the testosterone.

That is a personal choice, but I don't feel human or alive without it. I know cort replacements will make me feel healthier but I need to feel like a man.

No matter what my physical condition, I am still and always will be male gendered. I need to be able to grow into an adult male. It just has to happen.

I can watch my diet, see a doctor every day if I have to, but I can't live as a female, I would rather prepare for the worst and live as myself. I resolved that years ago, when I was certain that I would be able to live as a man.
If the worst is death next year, at least I would have lived a year as my self.
If it came to it I would use testosterone from the street and do have access to it.

Honestly I think my condition is not THAT serious. I have had a coma, seizures and blacked right out when I was anorexic, and I have a constant state of uncontrollable arousal and have a hard time staying awake and alert. However my electrolytes and all seem pretty normal now. I have a few cups of tea, my phallus goes soft for once and I feel good.

I've lived with few incidents for 25 years, I'm sure I will live another. Just concerned for the kids right now mainly. I'm going to get my T in Toronto , test for CAH in Hamilton. Let's see how this goes.

Just need to find more information on how I can deal with this and stay healthy.