[steve/lisa]

Thank you Dianne,I guess I'm most comfertable with lisa,I guess I have always been that way but father(deceased ) was not, see my mother(deceased)wanted me as a girl and my name would have been Lisa May ....... father was aahh stern... he raised me (parents were devoriced) He had custody of me,and his mission in life was to make a man out of me a rather tough one at that,the lessons were hard.but a few yrs ago i stopped giving myself the tostesterone injections,they where getting real hard on my liver and me in general.After that i just realized that lisa was there(actualy she's always been their) and it just seemed to be a natural thing,i always(after the cancer more than befor)had some breast development,after got a little more after i stopped the tostesterone a yr or so later they got even bigger,my body has done a major changes so,I am most comfee with lisa,and live as her,for some time now,but the mood swings,and thoughts of her are at best some times over whelming.I'm just letting things evolve,I'm so much more calmer now than the early yrs.So Dianne if this does not bother you then OH BOY that would be nice to have friends that don't care.All i have left in me(sex organs) Is one right ovary and assorted hardware inside,and my DR says i must have it opened up to drain as this is the decision i must make very soon(it's he_ _)now when i menstruate,thats the problemit can't get out the openning was sewn shut during the first 2 yrs of age i had 6 surgeries between 2 months and 2 yrs old,see i am a chimera by Tetragametic embryo absorbtion of my faternal twin,one of us was male and the other a female,they the DR's think maybe i was the female one,( in both parents sides their are heavy twinning(father first,14 in family,3 sets of hermaphrodites salt wasting,all died soon after birth fathers 2ed sister was turner's syndrome,(mothers side)G mother and great G mother were identical twins,mother had 4 live births,and 16 misscarrages total,that i was aware of,when i was conceived,she told me she felt different that time and was scard so the DR gave her D>E>S>at the onset of the pregnancy,until the 8th month,so she could not loose me like the others,when i was born(mother had AB+ blood RH- factor)I was RH+ factor and she had hemophilia,well they guessed my bother befor me(he's RH+ too)set the stage for me,reading the delivery reports of my birth,was at best traumatising,I, had ? got? (HDN) The report said infant died 3 times each time was revived,they slowly removed my blood and replaced it with RH- blood she did not get an injection of RhoGAM till after my next brother was born but he was RH-,anyway she almost bleed to death as AB+ blood is hard to find she got over a dozen pts of plasma and 3 pts of AB+. Anyway getting tired now I'll write more later(sorry)I said this was a long one,and i was trying not to write another book!?. Thanks Dianne for the ear,talk soon .lisa (At last maybe a friend thank you.)