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shame, guilt, its kinda a mixed bag
oh yes its very easy to expect our parents to love and accept us for the way we were made, came into this world, only to find out, that they are the worst ones, they are much like the doctors who say its for our best interest, they are the ones who seem to betray us the most. It is not easy feeling rejected by the ones who are suppose to love you most. I actually think its the surgeons fault, i blame them most for how my parents treat me. I really see how a parent with an intersexed child is gonna react and wish the best life for there child, and do/allows dr's to fix things so there child looks normal. What i still don't get, is that all of the evidence has shown and repeatedly shown that the methods used on us, failed miserably, and made our acceptance even more difficult. Not just with society, but with our families most. Not having the supportive parents, my life became much more difficult after I found out, then before. The openness of dr's during my military carreer was a difficult thing in its self. Coming home to the states i expected much the same treatment, instead, i am nothing to them, and get treated as such. It is rare when i feel a dr. actually cares, and its even rarer when i feel that they are listening to me.
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Kailana Sidrandi Alaniz, The Screaming Banshee, i'm only happy when im complaining.
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