[Kailana]

And its Great to see you Onnineko.

I wouldn't blame an intersexed person either for attempting suicide, and feeling totally ashamed when they found out. I was that way as well, two suicide attempts, 5 hospitalizations and those all because of the care i got, the cruel remarks i received, the total lack of understanding i was getting from the Doctors locally. And yes i wasn't any better when they chose surgery again in 2002, at 31 years, 9 months of age without my consent. So i kinda understand just how bad some people can get treated. And just how devastating it can be trying to get more information and help understanding what everything means. Or just the daily trauma of constantly judging yourself as a man or a woman, as a true hermaphrodite, and having a very very hard time comming to some form of terms, at the time, suicide seemed the only real alternative. The constant lack of caring, the pushing of antidepressants and antipsychotic meds, only broke my will. That and the depression of well just feeling so very much alone, that no one cares, is hard enough on a person when they are stable, add in a little doubt, alot of bitterness and bad things happen. Also I really want to say that there are many people who dont understand suicide at all. They have no understanding that when a person is suicidal, all normal thought patterns about self preservation go right out the window. And I deffineately understand what that means.

Anyone, i mean everyone reading this should know that there is help, and its not always in the form of a antidepressant. Should anyone be going through, or having thoughts of suicide, please talk to someone a friend, a relative, a teacher, a coworker, anyone that you have had some bond of friendship, and yes even a psychiatrist, counsellor, social worker, or doctor can help. For anyone think that its the only solution, well, just to let you know, its not, there is help, you just need to try, push yourself a little, i mean your gonna have to push yourself alittle, and please dont feel ashamed. There are people specifically trained to help, even some not so well trained, that can help. While being IS can be quite devastating, finding out your IS can be devastating, there are plenty of us, and plenty of people who love us, and we are deffinately not the only people to have suicidal thoughts. Some time may pass before you, I, come to terms with what we are, nothing in life is easy, but it is deffinately worth trying/finding your happiness.