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Originally Posted by Jolinn
Sarra,
I was also concened about things you were saying back on Feb 16th in your post and it made me very skepticial. There is a old saying that if you give
someone enough rope they will hang themselves. Well !!! I do agree with Betsy that some counseling and psychological help is needed but it will only
be helpful if your honest in what you tell them..
Wish you luck in what ever course you take..
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Interesting you say that. I think I've mentioned here, but my psychiatrist has urged me more than once to see a urologist. As I also mentioned here, I cannot see one, as I've had over $200 in copays for visits to various other doctors as well recently. My copays tend to be $20 or less, thanks to insurance, so that gives you an idea on how many visits to the doctor (and now 3 visits to the hospital) I've made.
I went in for a thyroid scan a week ago. The results are not good. My total iodine uptake was 1.4% after 26 hours. Normal would be 8% uptake after 6 hours. Other than that, I'm seeing signs that other parts of my endocrin system are messed up as well. Changing my diet has helped, but my diet typically has been rather good, so there's not much more I can do for myself at this point.
As for the menstrual cycle... =\ I currently sit surrounded by 3 women at work, who are all at 'that time'. I'm feeling sick and getting cramps. Coincidence? Possibly. We'll see. I've had the worst mood swings and, well, bitchiness in the past 24 hours... Never been like this before in my life. Still could just be a random flu, and seeing how I possibly have an auto-immune problem or even an infection in a central part of my endocrin system, I'm not calling it either way.
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Mistake there, never never never ever call yourself a lesbian online, if you aren't uncontestably born and raised female. For a pre-everything like yourself, it's one of the deadly sins. It's a title you have to earn via the respect and admiration of others. There's a lot more to the situation than who you lust after plus what you'd like to be. There's an appreciation of the sensibilities which apparently you might be ignoring.
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So what am I? Technically, sex is impossible for me anyway, not like I could feel it anyway (even if I could, I'd refuse sex, period). I guess I should have simply said 'I'm a nonsexual', since that would make more sense.
I don't lust after anyone. I desire a trust based non-sexual relationship based on emotion. So far, I've been in two relationships with women who both saw me as one as well, and it was decidedly non-sexual. My emotional state is such that, given the oppertunity to be in a relationship with anyone, regardless of gender, I would refuse. I'm not stable enough at all to be in a reationship. I have no desire to mess up someone else's life. If I have an oppertunity to improve my own life, then I will take it (if it is mutually beneficial). I'm not some horny teenaged boy, nor do I act, look, or feel like one.
As for Klinefelters, I basically show all of the clinicial indications that I have it, except being overly tall. The ironic thing is, my unknown thyroid problem may cause the same exact indications. The thyroid problem may be responsible for me having an unmeasurably low Testosterone count. The thyroid problem's cause is unknown, but chances are that I was born with it or aquired it when I was younger than 5 years old. I may request a karyotype when I can afford it. I can afford it when I get my car paid off, depending on how much rent is when I move out.
The one last thing I wish to say is this. I had, or may even still have an unmeasurably low testosterone level. Yet, I show no sign of it, nor have I. In fact, almost the opposite. If my T level is unmeasurable, yet my body is still acting like it has T in abundance... What's the deal? My estradiol level was low for a male, too (normal level being 14-40 for males, my level being 12). What's up with the stomach cramps that don't seem to be related to food or GI problems? What's with the intense water retention (my breasts and stomach are... Well, I look like like I'm early term pregnant, and it's not fat either)? What's with the odd pains (where those surgery scars are supposed to be)? Why does it appear that I have some kind of estrogen cycle? I have too many questions, and no answers. I'm so tired of this. I wish I could just quit, but something is keeping me going. =\
