where do i start? i'm not quite sure who sets up this website, but it's very user friendly and accepting of those who want to participate and learn from other's experiences, no matter how tramatic some may be to read. it's very much appriciated. i'm a 22 year old white male, masculine in appearance, with a micropenis, and a college graduate. that is the single most important accomplishment in my life, especially with the my confusing sexual orientation (is lost an orientation?) and having to deal with it pretty much alone, and the fact that i have fibromyalgia, a debilitating muscular affliction that is most common in 50 year old women... i joined this site because i have been in the dark as to the underlying reasons for my genital makeup, or the lack thereof, and my inability to cope with neither the physical complications nor the emotional ones that came as a result of being too ashamed to speak of my penis' lack of functionability, or come to terms that many others might have similar issues. My penis is just over an inch long, erect...It is less than half an inch soft, and wider than it is long. i have normal sized testicles which are fully descended, and nothing else cosmetically different externally. it tucks inside the top of my scrotal sack when extremely flaccid, and looks like its a relatively large, recessed clitoris; it looks kinda like a little turtle. i have to urinate sitting down every time, and have an extremely hard time urinating in the stalls of public restrooms. my sex life is a whole other story unto itself, but i have difficulty getting erect on short notice (no pun intended) and i dont succeed in lasting too long; i often orgasm without ever getting hard; my orgasms are not similar to other men's, and simply drip out slowly not explosively, and i often get hard AFTER the orgasm. strange. i decided to seek help on these forums, because i have recently come to terms with the fact that my penis is not simply small, but has something to my gestation before birth, but i am unclear as to what in particular. my mother and father had no money when i was born, and were told i was a girl in the ultrasounds, and thats it, and nothing else wrong. but i was born with testicles and an apparent clitoris, and they had no resources to do anything about it. thank god. but they know nothing else and never had tests, no records of it exist at all they have told me, since i asked them. i turned our relatively fine without surgery, and was not violated permanentely at birth. that is something i will post my opinions on later. no pills in childhood, no couseling, nothing. i just grew up looking at it, going through normal puberty and thinking it'd eventually grow bigger; i was never much around other naked boys growing up and never had comparisons. but, as i grew up, around my early teens, i began to baby sit kids and give them baths before bed. i found out quickly that little four and five year old boys who were skinny like me had penises much bigger than mine, like twice my size. when i was taking care of my cousins a couple years ago, and as they changed before we went in the pool, they changed right in front of me (something i never would have done when i was 8) and i noticed theirs were ridiculously bigger than mine. i was shocked, and knew there was something seriously wrong with my own equipment. and so here i am, waiting for other info that anyone may have of my odd machinery and why nothing else is wrong with my body except my penis. thanks again for this wonderful forum--you guys will be my saviors i know it.

Good to have you 'aboard'. I know that there are others far more familiar with this condition than I, but I want you to know that you are not alone in this.

All My Best
Wyn

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You have no idea how much that made my day. Thank-you.

I can't help much in regards to your post other than to be a sympathetic and knowing ear (this entire site and community is actually) but wanted to say hello and welcome.

Betsy

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wanted to say welcome
Az1

Welcome! This is definately a good place for you.

Jim Costich